Just Me and You

Facing The Facts

(Micah's POV)

I go downstairs and see my mom on the couch watching T.V I have no idea how I'm going to tell her. All I know is it's finna be some shit. I love her and I don't want to loose her because of this I just hope she understands. All I want is to be happy and not have to hide myself from people because it's just too much. My family is my everything and if they react badly I don't know how that would make me feel. I would be soo lost cause this world is cold and nobody will love like your family. Now it's time to face the facts.  I sit there quietly and put this all together in my head. As soon as I open my mouth opens to say something my phone goes off playing If by Destiny's Child without even looking at the called ID I knew it was RC. I run up stairs to answer.
Me: Hello! Make it quick cause I was in the middle of something and I'm pretty sure you got someone else to attend to. I don't have time to be playing games.
RC: Damn baby boy I just called to say sorry and I should have told you bout ole boy. I just want you to know no matter how many people I date you will always be my #1 your place in my heart will never be filled. You will always have my heart weather you want it or not and I know you feel the same. You know I still remember the first time I seen you I was like who dat sexy person you have no idea how bad you made me nervous you always made me. I know I hurt you and I wanna say sorry...... Micah you still there .
Me: yes RC I'm still here. I just would of rather you of have been up front and tell me you couldn't keep your promise and you had someone else. O and BTW you down graded.
RC: Yeah I know I was wrong. He my not be as sexy as you but he a good person.
We stayed on the phone for hours reminiscing on the past and shit like he wish we could be together tbh I happy we not together don't get me wrong he will always have a place in my heart I just needed who would be there for me. When it's late at night and I just want to cuddle he would be miles away doing who know what like it would be too much stress. It's bout 1 O'Clock fuckkkkk I was supposed to talk to mom ughhh I guess I'll do it tomma. I'll cook a big breakfast and erthang or better yet I'll take her out for breakfast. I'll give her the choice I Hop or Denny's I know shell pick Denny's cause that's our favorite breakfast place I just hope it goes well. I'm not going to tell her at the restaurant Ima wait till we get home in case she do take it hard.
      
           ~Morning~
I wake up early round 7 O'Clock I do my daily routine and then I look in my closet ughhh its a struggle trying to figure out wat to ware is a struggle. So I settle with am all red shirt and my all white ripped jeans and my all white  Nike high tops to put my fit all together my gold necklace and stud ear rings and just let my hair flow. I snap a dew pics for the gram and go down stairs to see my mom on the couch just laughing her ass off.
Me: aye ma for breakfast you wanna go to I Hop or Denny's?
Mom: you paying?( you should've seen how her eyes lit up)
Me: yes I am so go get ready.( that was the fastest I've seen her move)
As I'm waiting for her to come down I waste time on twitter and insta. I get knocked out my bored acts of someone knocking on the door. When I opened the door I pushed him out the door cause he tried to come in. I closed the door behind me and looked at him.
Me: Damon what in the hell are you doing here?( I was so confused I didn't know if I wanted to be happy or punch him in the face)
Damon: damn lil shorty I just came to check up on you and see if you wanted to Netflix nd chill(smirks and bites his lip)  I'm still shocked you single. Someone as fine as y-
Me: (straight faced him the whole time) I'm flattered, and no I can't, and I can cause niggas like you only want 1 things and if you think I'm that easy you got me all the way messed up. So you can get your ass off my porch with that bullshit I ain't got time for shit like this. Don't cone by my house uninvited like this again.
And with that being said he storms off my porch and speeds off. I don't give a fuck if he mad he a fuck boy anyway. I walk back in the house with my mom coming down the stairs looking good she don't need to ware no make up. My mom is short and is a curvey woman, with light brown skin and eyes, and long black hair. She's 33 y/o yes she young she had me when she was 15. We hop in my wip and ride out.
          ~15 minutes later~
We get seated and waiting for the waitress to come and we just made small talk. The waitress can and asked wat we wanted to drink and we both got the strawberry mango pucker its to die for. I got the cinnamon pancakes, hash brown and eggs. She got the meat lovers omelet and toast. We ate in silence. Yes the food was that good. Later the waitress came with the check and I paid for it with my debit card.
Mom: so when was yo broke ass gonna tell me you had some some money. Wasn't it you yesterday asking me for gas money. When have you ever gave me gas money. I bought you all types of stuff and ran you everywhere you needed to be. When I asked you for ¢25 on the gas you turned yo poor ole momma down.
Me: are you done. Really I don't know why you didn't want to be an actress.
Mom: cause they said my beauty would over power the show. Now why did you bring me here? O my goodness you got a girl pregnant I'm way to young to be a grandmother. Wait you tryin to kill me lawd no wonder you asked me of I had life insurance. Better yet you gonna tell me I can live with you when you get a house.
Me: (straight faced her the whole entire time) none of those things are going to be the topic of our convocation. We will talk about it when we get home. Ok
We got back in the car and drove off. The ride was silent other the the music playing. You really don't value a person until the day comes when they're not in your life anymore. We had to go to the store to pick up a few things. We finally got home and time to drop the bomb. I took all the groceries in and told her to sit down at the table while I got 2 glasses of strawberry lemonade. When I return I sit down and drink all the lemonade at once. My throat was really dry and hurting.  As soon as I open my mouth to say something my phone started ringing and I didn't even look at the caller ID I just sent them to voicemail and I really didn't care who it was at this point. Ughhhh why is this soo hard this silence is killing me. Ok here goes nothing.
Me: ok here goes nothing. Ma I'm gay and I have been for 7 years. I didn't know what these feelings were at first until a few years ago. That explains why I've been acting soo ughhh over the past years and I can't change and I won't change for nobody I may want you to accept me but you don't know how hard I tried to convince myself I ain't.
Mom:(complete silence for 5 minutes) I knew it. I FUCKIN KNEW IT!! I thought it was just a stage. Every time something gay on TV or something I would say you would freeze up. 7 fuckin years you kept this from me how dare you. You been acting like a scared little bitch for all that long.(she started laughing and it scared me ) so all those times I asked you got a lil girlfriend you've been messin round with boys. Hahaha you must got me all fucked up I ain't raise you to like boys.
Me:( at this point I'm just in tears hearing the woman you love and supposed to love you say those words) Do you know how many times I cried myself to sleep knowin what heartless, ruthless people are doing to gays. Yes I'm not the way YOU wanted to be but I'm happy with myself. YOU or nobody an make me happy with your fake ass opinion. I'm done being the little boy who's scared of what you will think. Sorry ma you ain't got NO MORE control over me.
Mom: well excuse the flying fuck out of me. Since you so damn grown get you gay happy ass and all you shit out my mutha fuckin house and don't come back. Since I ain't got no control over you and you ain't scared no more loose my number and when you see how cruel, heartless and ruthless. I don't care no more so get all yo shit out my house I don't know where you go, where you sleep but you won't be here no more.
I was so shattered I couldn't move so to give me some motivation to she slapped me
Me: now you should know why I didn't tell you. You think I wanted to be gay. You think I would choose to be talked bout. You know what I ain't gotta explain myself to you Ima get my shit and leave and bets believe I will no call nor come back.
I stormed up stairs to my room well my ex room I have soooo much shit I have to make multiple trips to get all my things. When I go to me ex room I stand there and look at the empty room and the shut the door and walk down the stairs and my last words were "Peace out it's been sorta real. Everything happens for a reason" and then I toss the house key on the couch and slam the door. I have no idea where Ima sleep tonight. Let me see is Deso let me stay till the mourning.
Deso: aye was up.
Me: nun much I was wondering is I can stay the night I'll be out by the mourning I promise I just need this favor.
Deso: fo sho youz my bro anything for you
Me: thanks now can you open your door.
I told her every thing that happen and everything that was said and she was just speechless. I cried myself to sleep that night and I'm sick of crying so damn much ughhhh.

          ~Next mourning ~
When I woke up my eyes were all red and puffy but I think I'm done crying. Now its time for me to be on my way to the ATL. So I just did my mourning routine at Deso house and I threw on my black jogger suit and my red low adidas and my gold studded ear rings and necklace and had Deso to braid the front part of my head and I put the rest in a messy bun. Well first I need to stop and get some gas and some snacks.

        ~6 hr 11 min later~
I'm finally here and I I'm looking for this apartment building Live Well View. I know its so sudden I found a place but when I saw that place online and when I called and I was desperate and in need of a place. The lady on the phone name was Margret and she said there is a room available but I would have a roommate but she said I have to be cleared and fill out a bunch of paper work. I never thought I would end up like this almost living in my car at least its a nice car. God must have a plan for me for him to put me through this I have 100% faith in him. Ima have to put college off for a while and get my money up for right now. I finally reach Live Well View and I walk in and for a short noticed apartment it's very nice white shiny tiles very beautiful lobby. I go to the front desk and ask Margret and I was talking to her.
Margret: hello you must be Micah and it's a pleasure to meet you on such a short notice. All you have to do is fill out this paper work and we will let you meet your roommate.
Me: I have all my clothes and stuff in my car and can I have some water.
Margret: I'll ask your roommate to help you with all that he will be more than happy to help. And you you can so how did you end yo here in your situation?
While I fill out all this paper work I explain wat happened and she was telling me how sorry she was. 1 quick fact you should know bout me I don't need for ANYONE to feel sorry for me. When I was done filling out the paper work she gave me a tour of the place of has everything like a pool, exercise room, basketball court, free cable and WiFi, chill spot, game room. After that we went to go meet my roommate. My room #734 on the top floor I feel special and when I knocked on the door I was soo nervous. When ole dude finally opened the door I was like damn.

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