Crush | Kim Taehyung

01. really?

I stood up from my seat.

Recess... finally.

I clung my arms with none other, my best friend, Luna. We seem to have a great moment chichatting on our way to canteen.

But then.. i saw him.

There he is... Kim Taehyung.

I tried to refrain myself from fangirling. I tried to shut mysel up. But i ended up, making myself stupid.

I bought my food and as soon as i turned my back, he was just right behind me!

Ottokhae!?

"Calm down. Act cool. Act cold."
I set it up in my mind.

He was looking at me! I looked away but then we blocked each other ways.

Really?

Please.. don't make me fall for you more.

xxx

I walked past him just now..
His scent was so alluring.. his manly scent.
His perfume is so addicting.

His perfect eyes, from head to toe, it's perfect..

Why is he making me like this?
Does he even like me?
My friends are shipping me with him,
Yet.. i just don't feel right.

I hate him because making me like this.

I entered my classroom with my friends. Thinking deeply about him. Suddenly, Hana asked me. "hey do u still like him?" i was starstrucked by her question.

"e--erm no.. of course." i replied stutterly, while rubbing the back of my neck. "yeah right.. you know, i ship you guys! He just being so stupid! He doesnt realize how pretty you are yet! Right guys?"

Then, a group of my shippers came and started clapping, getting all over excited. I don't know why, but i just hate being shipped with him.

Not that i hate, but.. my instinct was just saying that he will not like me! Why? Easy.

He's popular, one of the school heartthrob, genius, rich. What could you even ask for?

He's perfect! A guy like him would like me? Tsk. Dream on.

But i just don't umderstand him!
First, he would make a move getting near with me then in a split second, he would avoid me. Like what would i really do? Confess? In a million years.

I'm not the type that will confess to boys, unless they're the ones who make the first move. If i make the first move, it's like i'm showing myself that i'm to desperate owning him as mine.

My friends were different. They would ratherly confess. Me? Me of course, being a stupid, doing like always.I would only watch him from far. Once he gets near, i would run. I dont even know why did i run.

Afraid? Nope.
Nervous? Nope.

It just doesnt feel right..

xxx

"Hana! Please answer this question!" the teacher questioned. Oh fuck, i was dozing off. Great.

"Sorry,  i don't know the answer seosaengnim. Mian." i bowed, asking for apology. "Aish, next time please pay attention arasseo? Or are u sick? Would you like to go to he clinic?" she reassured me, asking worryingly. "Ani, i'm fine, just a bit tired." i gave my eyesmile, sitting back.

Could the day get even better?

xxx

"Yah! Why are you so gloomy??" Taeny asked me, making me realized to earth.

"I dont know. I dont  know what happened to me. It's just because of him.. it's been like 2 years that i have liked him. Yet, nothing had happenned. There are some signs, but maybe i was just overmyself. He would not like me. :(" i confessed to my best friend.

Like literally, i have 3 best friends in total. I love them to death. They're the one who i trust the most, who i cherished always. Maybe i've just know them last year but no. I love them the way they are. They always support me through my ups and downs. Sometimes, we would quarrel against stupid things and even fight for a simple question of maths.

They're like my family already. They know my secrets, i know their secrets. We would share everything everyday, fangirling over idols and even slapping each other without any reasons. We would have alone time sometimes, but that apparently would not stand long, because living without a friend is like you're living without using your own clothes.

They know about my crush thingy, i really have a problem with him. I'm so frustrated, at first i thought he likes me. Then the next day, he would act like a fucker.

This is why i always had my stress. Exam is around the corner, yet im here worrying about my crush. I know i'm suppose to focus on my studies.. but.

He just made everything useless.

I might sound pathetic,  but yea. I'm madly in love with him, i just love the way he is and he's just perfect in my eyes. There's nothing that he does, that can make me stop liking him.

Unless..

He, himself would asked me to stop liking him. I'm surely confident that he has a crush, but i just don't know who it is. Everytime, i would saw him took glances over some a group of girls, but i'm not sure which one. :(

I knew it, i just really know from the very start. I shouldnt have like him. I dont even recognised him at school before i started liking him. But now, he is like one of the most important people i must see at school eveyday.

Every morning,  i would searched up for him. If he comes, i would smile like an idiot person. If he was absence, i would be dead silent the whole day. It's not like i'm not the crazy type, i am. But yea.. you know.

Everytime, my friends would make a joke or fuss about dirty stuffs in class and that would made my day. Lol. They're like my source of happiness. for me, i have the most awesome class in universe. We have the same thoughts and attitude. XD

xxx

End of chapter 1.