Creators Note:
I made a few edits to this chapter for well, my own sake ಠ‿ಠ
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"I dont-, I mean I thought..." I didn't know what to tell him if I should be honest. And really I was even sure if I was telling myself the truth.
"It's okay." He said rubbing circles on my back. "You need to tell anyone, even yourself for that matter right now."
"What do I do right now then?" I said dangerously leaning towards Yeonjun for advice.
"I'll help you!" He clapped.
"Excuse me?" I said changing my tone.
"I'll help you find a boyfriend, to get you away from Jisung!" He continues, "we'll find someone that fits your standards, that way you fall in love without all the heartbreak." My breath shifted he was overwhelming me. I stared at him wide-eyed signal him to shut up.
"Yeonjun!" I snapped, "I'm not gay." I tried to assure him and myself. I immediately rushed out the bathroom and outside the academy. I opened my phone and clicked on Soobin's number. I pinched eyes closed trying to find my breath.
- On Call -
Me- what if I do like him?
Soobin- Han?
Me- Yes, Han (I rolled my eyes)
Soobin- Then confess
Me- What if he's already dating someone else...
Soobin- *sigh*
It doesn't matter, he needs to know how you feel.
Me- I'll be setting my self up to be crushed!
Soobin- Beomgyu, I have no doubt that this is hard for you. Liking someone, one sided-love. Especially if it's a boy... I know you Gyu.
Me- He won't even think about hanging out with me if I tell him, let alone look at me...
Soobin- From what I hear he's a good friend and he will understand eventually if not right away.
You've got this Beommie.
Me- Please don't call me that.
I-I think I just need some time to, process... this.
Soobin- I'll only be a call away.
Me- Thank you
Bye Binnie
Soobin- Dude.
I sat on the bench a little while longer watching as the sun pulled on the shadows. I thought long and hard on what Soobin was ordering me to do. I replayed the call in my head, Soobin's answer was so direct as if it was obvious how I felt and what needed to be done. The first true friend I made here and I have a crush on him, a boy for crying out loud! I buried my head into my hands hoping they would swallow me whole away from my spinning thoughts. I was going to confess, for my own sake and the sake of our friendship in a way.
"What the hell?!" A voice sprang up from behind me, making my shoulders shoot down to the edge of the bench bracing myself, until I saw who was yelling.
"Han?"
"Yes I'm Han, and who are you to just ditch me like that?" "You promised to meet me, I get no call, no text, nothing!" He gasped using all his air scolding me. "I called you like six times, I was worried something happened to you!" He grabbed my shoulders into a hug, keeping me still as if I were going to run away. He's a lot shorter than me so when his head rested on my shoulder for a second. I couldn't help but smile, until I realized how wrong this felt and this might be my only chance to come out to him. It all came rushing through my head as reality hit. Will he think of me anymore than just some creep wanting his attention? Just do it Beomgyu! I told myself drowning out the other voice filling my head.
"Han," I gulped, "I have something I need to tell you."
"Gyu, don't scare me, what's wrong?" He looked up at me loosening his grip before backing away, making me gulp down my confidence.
"N-Nothings wrong, I'm just worried I'll ruin our friendship."
He punched my shoulder playfully, "I'm not an idiot Beomgyu. Your one of my best friends now, I'm not getting rid of you that quickly." His words should have taken some of the weight off my chest, but it did nothing. Not when I knew there was a strong chance of him backing out everything he promised. I wanted out of this, tell myself nobody, especially Han would ever like me that way. But I'm sticking to what I promised I would do, because I know my love story- or, drama starts here. I took a deep breath of the crisp afternoon air as I reopened my eyes, landing on Han as he waited for me to say something.
"It's because I like you Han." I shrugged slightly trying to loosen the heavy tension.
It seemed like forever that we stayed in the same position as we let the words sink in. I felt a warm sensation reach the top of my cheeks when I began to speak again.
"I know you're already in a relationship," I began, "And I'm not telling you to leave it, not that you would, I just wanted you to know." My words quieting to a whisper. I pinched my lips closed, trying to sort out my thoughts and to somehow explain them.
"Beomgyu," He said with pity tracing his voice. My heart sank. "I'm flattered, I really am." He said with a smile. "I'm glad you were able to come out to me but, I really like Lee Know." He maintained a light smile.
"I know." I said pushing content into my rough voice. I really wanted to be happy for him, wanted him to be happy.
"I'm sorry for leading you on," He said softly as if he was trying to keep me from shattering.
"You don't need to apologize, and you weren't leading me on, you were being a friend and I was being a helpless romantic," I smiled, "I'm hoping we can stay... Friends" I tilted my head a tad as if I was as a question. I gripped my phone once more, feeling the crevices of the buttons mark my fingers.
Han opened then closed his mouth, seeing through my glistening eyes.
"Of course Beomgyu, your like a little brother to me." He shut his mouth immediately hearing his stupid remark. I couldn't hold my laughter after seeing his reaction. He pulled me into a tight squeeze.
"Then your the stuck-up middle child." I teased.
"Your jokes aren't even funny." He said while pointing out his unsatisfied face expression. "C'mon their serving cheesy lasagna for dinner." Han said pushing my back forward.
I pinched my nose, "Ew cheese."
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