Just like a crow teasing a butterfly (boyxboy)

Just like a crow teasing a butterfly [chapter10]

A couple of days later (Thursday)

Liam

I've avoided him. I know it makes me a weakling, but I can't be around him. Not when she is there too. Which she is nearly all the time, the only place she isn't following him is to the bathroom, but wait and see; soon enough I bet she is there too. She is everywhere, and I'll soon have to escape the planet, or at least the school. Right now, I'm lying on Eliott and Gabe's bed, which by now nearly is my bed too. I'm not sleeping in the same room as him, cause she is there too. She's slept in my bed the two last nights, and I know I shouldn't let her; its MY fucking side of the bed, but since I'm avoinding Da-, him, I'm not sleeping there... I guess it's fair, I don't know. I don't know anything anymore. I've cried a lot. I've actually found my favorite place to cry: the shower. A little odd, I know, but it makes me feel the sorrow and pain is being washed away, and the sound of falling water relax me.

I'm currently just thinking. Gabe is outside with the others, I can see him if I turn my head a little bit around, and peeks out of the window. He told me to knock it to get his attention if I needed him. Earlier, I was a little surprised that Nathan and Seth are with him and Eliott, but I guess they became friends because they were trying to keep me together the last days. Seth actually came out too, really silent, though. He didn't make a scene, he was just kissing and holding hands with Nathan and no one said anything, but I don't think people were that surprised. I turn my head around to glance at them, and there they are; Nathan with his head at Seth's shoulder, Seth petting him on the head. Eliott is lying on his stomach on the grass, and it seems like he is reading something. I don't know, I can't see it clearly. Gabe is eating a lollipop. Andrew, who I didn't notice before right now, opens his mouth, and Gabe lets him taste the lollipop. I think they've been crushing on each other for a while now, but they're never doing anything about it. It may of course be a mistake, but I don't think so.

So, everything is normal, but that I'm not with them. I should be, but I don't want to. I've got a slight headache, so I'm trying to sleep. As you've probably guessed by now, it doesn't help. Suddenly, a hard knock on the door makes me almost fall out from the bed. I suggest it's Lily, but she doesn't knock that hard, does she? I open the door slowly, and it's not Lily... It's him. It's Darren.

Darren

I look at the door for a little while... Lily told me he was in Gabe and Eliott's room... I think it's here, since this is one of the rooms I've never been in. I hesitate for a couple of seconds, then I knock the door. I can hear footsteps on the other side of the door, and then someone opens the door slowly. It is Liam, but it doesn't look like my Liam. Wait, did I just say my Liam? I meant... Oh, God, he doesn't seem like the Liam I know. The Liam I know is happy, and he is smiling bright when he sees me. I don't like this version; all he does is to widen his already big, dark eyes even more. He looks like a scared kitten, and I smile slightly "Can I come in? We need to talk" "Where is she?" He is pronounsing the word "she" with so much hate and venom I almost take a step backwards "hey, slow down! She's not even at the school, she is shopping with her friends."

He furrows his brows, and moves aside so I can enter the room. I sit down in the couch, and motions Liam to sit in it too. He takes the seat as long away from me as possible. "What do you have against her anyways? Wait a second, don't answer that. The question I'm supposed to ask is much more important: What've happened to you?" He looks down at his feet, pretending his socks suddenly are very interesting... "You can tell me everything, you know." He shakes his head, murmuring "no... I can't. You won't understand." "of course I will! Come on. I understand perfectly if it's better to let the friends you've known a long time help you, but I'm a friend too, okay? I'm here for you." This makes him sniff, and I don't even get time to wonder what's happening before tears are pouring down his cheeks. He looks away, then says with pain in his voice "you can't help me... Not when... " His voice trails off, but he caught my attention. "Not when?" He shakes his head "forget it" he mumbles, but I won't surrender. Not yet, but I'll pretend like.