Excessive (Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Chapter 78.

"This position is not going to help us at all" I commented making him chuckle.

"Nope" he said, pulling me closer as if telling me there was no way I was leaving.

"Where should we start?" I asked making his eyes widen.

"When you left me.." he said looking at me with wide eyes.

"Harry, you know I didn't want to leave you, I wanted to leave what you were doing.." I said making his eyebrows furrow.

"You wanted to leave me because of my extra baggage?" he asked making me shake my head.

"No, you're twisting my words around, I wanted to leave because it terrified me to pieces that you were so quick to snap and completely turn the tables. It was easy for you to beat up your own brother, it could be just as easy for you to do the same to me.." I said making his body go stiff.

"I would never lay a fücking finger on you, never.." he said, his face hardening by the word.

"You say that, but you don't realize how hard you rage.." I said making him shake his head.

"Get that fücking thought out of your head because like hell it would happen" he said sternly.

"Okay.." I whispered, watching his eyes squint.

"That still doesn't mean anything, why were you so quick to leave me?" he asked making me sigh.

"I don't know, I just don't know" I replied.

"It scares me that you can just get up and leave and not feel anything.." he said making my eyes widen.

"It killed me to leave, but I couldn't stay and put up with that.."

"I wish you didn't leave. It would feel a lot better if you didn't." he said making my heart sink.

"You're not all innocent here.." I pointed out, making him sigh.

"What I did was a drunken mistake, you were completely sober during yours.." he said.

"That doesn't make you innocent, Harry. Just because you were drunk doesn't mean you get the free pass" I said.

"I know that and when you barged in on me, I had never sobered up that quickly in my entire life" he said making me suck in a harsh breath.

"Why were you with them? And, why were you in Vienna?" I asked.

"Because, Luchesi told me you were with him. I knew that he either took you to England which was a long stretch so I just suspected he was at his house. I did go there and he said I can't see you, so I went to pass some time and I got drunk and I was spiteful.." he admitted.

"Why did you do that in spite of me?" I asked.

"I was mad, mad that you wanted to leave me so much. I hate the idea that you possibly hated me and in that moment I wanted you to feel my pain" he said, watching my horrified expression "Fücked up, I know" he said.

"I hate seeing you with other girls" I mumbled.

"I hate seeing you walk away.." he said, trying to look in my eyes.

"Drunk or not, it still hurts.." I said making him sigh.

"I know baby, I know" he said pulling me closer.

I sat with my head on his chest, listening to his heart beat rapidly thump in his chest. I hated how nervous he was. I hate the tension between us. I hated the fact that I wanted to kiss him so badly and make him feel better. Seeing him this worked up about the whole situation just made this talk even worse. I hated every second of this and all I want it to be back in bed with him like I was this morning.

"We're both wrong here, neither of us deserve the pity.." I said making him nod.

"We both did some fücked up shït.." he replied making me take a breath.

"Two wrongs don't make a right. Let's try to the best of our ability to forget the whole thing.." I said making him nod and bit his lip

He grabbed my hips and lifted me up, placing me back down on his lap only this time straddling him. His hands ran down my sides before stopping right at my bum. He let out a groan as I readjusted myself and let one hand fall on his chest while the other wrapped itself in his short curls. He let our foreheads touch before finally allowing us to breath with each other once again.

"I missed this.." he said giving my lips a small peck.

"Me too.." I said letting my lips linger on his. His heads squeezed my bum as he pulled away a bit with a smirk resting on his lips.

"I meant to ask.. how did your ass get so much bigger in two weeks.." he said making my jaw drop.

"Excuse me?" I asked watching his eyebrows raise and a laugh escape this throat.

"No, baby I promise that's a good thing.." he said making me look at him with squinted eyes.

"Okay.." I said warily, with a devious smirk on my lips.

This is what I missed. His laugh, his humor, his smile, his lips. But most of all...

I missed him

A/N:

here's what happened, my computer crashed right before I saved this chapter and I lost the WHOLE thing and you know when like you type a paper and loose it and never want to type it again well yeah same.. but here it is!

They made up!

I have a feeling a lot of you will like the next chapter ;)

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