The Invisible String

Chapter 33. Like You

His hands wrapped Around my waist bring me close. His one hand disappeared in my hair, opening my ponytail. Keeping my head on chest listening to his heart beat, I closed my eyes. It happened so fast that I forgot to refuse anything.

Everything feels surreal, everything feels Calm and tranquil. “Vanya.”

I Hummed “Hmm?”

“Can you—umm….”  He stammered. I never saw Ruhaan stammering or nervous, I wonder what it would be that he is fumbling.

I looked up, “What is it Ruhaan?”

He gulped “Yashwant is throwing a party in Italy and I am invited, and I am not a party person. But according to papa This time I have to go.” He finished. My heart clenched at again not having him here with me.

“Oh.” is what came out of my mouth.

“But I want to take you this time. I don't want to stay alone again. If….you want to come?” He hesitantly said.

I blink twice “You want to take me? To Italy? Can I go?” My voice pitched up a little from the dull ‘oh’

He chuckled “Ofcourse, you know Yashwant was bickering with me in the beginning, I have to bring you or he might not meet me at the party.”

I left a nervous giggle. His hands tightened around me, “So will you go with me?”

“A million Yes! Is it even a question Ruhaan? A topic to stammer?” I say circling My hands around his neck.

Can I hug him a little longer?

“I was afraid you would refuse it. You have your work too.” He thought about my opinion, he thought about my job. I don't know what good I did to deserve this moment. He was scared that I would refuse to go with him. Tears if you dare come now!

“I can't wait to see you in that gown.” He added.

“That was for that party?” My voice jumped at its peak as I broke the hug.

“Yes. And sorry for not informing you before.” he winced scratching his left brow. Now I should name him adorbs!

I hugged him tightly and going a little up I planted a chaste Kiss on his cheeks quickly and buried my face in his neck “Thank you for taking me with you.”

Maybe I did too much in excitement….

He was stunned for some time but then he planted a kiss On my head and said “I should be the one Thanking you. For coming with me. And how can I not take you wherever I go? You have become my peace in chaos. I want you everywhere I go, I see you wherever I go. I want us. I was scared.”

I looked up at him, "Why are you saying that?”

His one hand cupped my right cheek “Because I think I never said it properly and clearly before. So I am saying it now. I am a coward with a brutal past lingering with me. An afraid one. Faking everything I have. But after so many years after my college today I feel like I am living again with you. You bring out the deep buried wounded boy of me which I loathed because he was a weakling. I cannot live all by myself like before, because  now that I am attracted to you and…..I don't think I could spend one more night without telling you how much I like you. I feared everything. Even marrying you was a topic which used to make me hate myself and stressed me out more because I am not the man you deserve, not the one anyone deserves. I feared and hated our marriage, because I thought that would be best for both of us. But I was so fucking wrong in the process I hurt both of us but you the most.” He left a breathy shake as talked further.