Not now

6 years later.

I now am out of college, working at a bank.

I am engaged to my fiancé, Aurora, which is currently pregnant with my child. We are buying our first house in a couple months.

I realized I was bisexual when I fell for my fiancé. 

We now live in a small apartment together.

I love her.

Gerard?

I haven't really thought about him until now.
I haven't heard from him until... You know.

I haven't thought about cutting or hurting myself until back then, too.

I was going to be a father.

Im not that rebellious teenager I was in high school anymore.

I was happy.

Maybe one day, in another lifetime, me and Gerard will be right for each other.

But not now.

The end.