January 22nd
I closed the door firmly behind me and dropped to my knees. I cried heavily. I had lost everything now: phil had gone and couldn't...wouldn't come back, my dad would surely kick me out for this and I just had nothing to hold onto anymore. I didn't see a reason to keep on going.
Give it time, it'll get better. Yeah it does, but then it just gets fucking worse again! Everything was going good, we wanted to move in together but that wasn't going to work. Maybe in the after life it would be different, maybe we'll live together in another life… just not this one.
I'm so sorry I texted phil with shaking hands as tears dropped onto my phone, making it glisten and wet. I put my phone onto the side and walked towards my mirror, I looked like a mess… phil probably didn't even love me anyway, how could he? He would've dumped me in no time. I grabbed the small mirror and threw it against the wall, making it shatter in a few large shards of glass. 7 years badluck? Well I've had 16 years bad luck already so bring it on!
I picked it up and it shook, I felt suddenly weak and drained. Numb all over as I lifted up my sleeves. I saw my vein, bright blue, ready to be carved into.
I held the glass like a knife, my finger held firmly on the top as the tip it pointed at my wrist. I took in a steady breath and pierced my skin. My breath hitched as dull pain throbbed through me, I cut deeper. Blood squirted, going onto the pages of my open diary.
I'm bleeding out now. I can feel the peace. Dizziness is taking over me and my vision is black and blury, I like it. I don't deserve to be here, so now I won't be anymore.
Phil, don't mourn for me at my funeral. Find someone else. I love you . I love you. I love y
Authors note
This isn't the end. There's more chapters to come :p shit is happening and this story is slowly coming to a close.
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Time | Phan AU (MAJOR grammar editing in progress)
FanfictionDan has set a date. He will wait 6 months and if his life isn't better by then he will end it. Just days after planning this he meets Phil. Things get worse at first, and Dan continues to feel worthless. Can Phil save him before its too late? Trig...
