wrote this chapter to this song. I love Ariana she so beautiful. been my comfort artist since 2013. Five chapters in the span on 24 hours yaay..
(mention of slight e.d and throwing up )
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"Babyyy", Billie whined, my eyes fluttered opened .
All I could see were balloons floating above me. The room smelled like food..Suddenly I saw her above me.. her blue eyes staring at me.Her little button nose scrunched up as she smiled.
What a fucking beautiful way to wake up.. She looked like a real-life angel.
My eyes looked at the tray beside me. Avocado toast and something else I didn't recognize but it smelled like cinnamon. I kinda hate eating a little now but I'm going to eat for her .
"Morning, my beautiful girlfriend", she said..She handed me toothpaste tablets.I had a phone call earlier and I have to go to the studio soon she kissed my lips.
I fucking pouted. "What time?", I wrapped my legs around her waist. It's funny how they are even more sore than last night.
"In about a hour... I'm mad I never got to show you everything I decorated." She kissed my tattooed hands...
"I mean we still have time", I kissed her forehead.
"What's this ?" I pointed at the bowl which smelled like cinnamon.
"Cinnamon Quinoa Breakfast Bowl"
"Oh... I never had this it smells good ass hell".
She picked up the spoon and held it to my lips, waiting. I hesitated. My stomach turned at the idea of eating. Lately, I'd been feeling weird about food—sometimes guilty, sometimes just fucking exhausted at the thought of eating.
I took the food off the spoon and ate it..
"Mmm," I moaned, dragging it out dramatically just to mess with her. "It's so good, baby."
Billie immediately blushed, biting her lip.
I smirked. "Don't give me that look."
She shoved my shoulder. "Why all the dramatic-ass noises?"
"Shut up, Billie."
"Why are you so pretty hmm?" Billie held the spoon to my mouth to take another bite..
"Stopp", I said blushing. "You're making me nervous", I said gigging. I ate the food off the spoon.
"Sorry", Billie said pouting.
Shark came in the room and jumped on the bed.
"Of course he's begging for fucking food", I said.
"No cussing around my son", Billie covered his ears.
"Speaking of sons..you need to buy me a plan b today", I said giggling.
"Damnit," Billie dropped to the floor and shark followed jumping on her.
"Okay, fine", she sighed..
"I'll go to Walgreens". She said attaching her keys to her pants.
"Right now", I asked finally finishing my food..
"Yes because I'm going to forget and I don't want you to be uncomfortable"...
Billie grabbed her phone and shark leash and attached it to his collar..
"I'll be back okay", she kissed my forehead.
"Okay, be safe my love", I said as she closed the door behind me..
"I will", and I heard her go to garage..
Damnit I forgot how I hate being left by myself...
I felt myself have to throw up... I barely made it to the bathroom, gripping the counter as my body tried to throw up nothing. Just dry heaving, my stomach twisting painfully. I coughed, wiping my mouth.
Fucking embarrassing.
With a shaky breath, I dragged myself back to Billie's bed and flopped onto it. It was big as shit and soft as hell, like laying on a cloud. For someone rich as fuck, her room was surprisingly normal-looking.
It's a lot of balloons like I can't even count how many is in the ceiling. Rose pedals are all over the floor... she went all out for me..
Now she has to show me what else is decorated and planned. She said she has more.
I love her so much this the first time I've been physically desired....desired and loved at all. She gives me the love I've been craving since a child it's kinda sad really . I wish I had that love from my mom but I can't unfortunately...
I know it's fast but I've been liking Billie since we were friends..I want a future with her. She makes me so safe it's a wonderful feeling...
I just want to be happy and I'm scared I'll never fully will.. What if something ruins it??? She's famous fans are going to be in our relationship!
Every day I've been happy, and it's terrifying because I'm used to being at least a little bit miserable. It's like I'm waiting for something to go wrong.
Maybe I don't even deserve this.
Snapping me out my thoughts was Billie opening up the door .
She immediately came close to me.She handed me a Plan B and I heard her put something on the shelf....
I looked and it was Skyn condoms...Large
"Oh yeah I brought snacks too",she handed me the other bag...
She brought back two bags of Takis and two diet sodas.
She opened the Plan B for me and handed me a pill..
I stuck my tongue out and she placed the pill in mouth. I started chewing it because I can't swallow pill.. I opened the sprite and chugged it down...
I almost gagged...That's nasty ass fuck, I said frowning my face.
Billie grabbed a Takis and handed it to me...
"There", she kissed my lips...
"One day, imma have one day", Billie said singing carti...
"Maybe", I said giggling at Billie..
I curled into her side, my stomach still twisting—whether from the food or the Plan B, I wasn't sure.
(A/N so like what do you guys think will happen🥸 helloooooo (in Billie voice )
happy Valentine's Day again sigh I hate this holiday :( maybe one day I will Lol)
