Stronger

Chapter One

Have you ever felt like your heart was getting ripped out of your chest? Well you haven't? I have.

I sat next to my boyfriend, who I am head over heels in love with, have been since I was a freshman in High School. He is my high school sweetheart and always will be but that's not what I am here for. Avery and I have been avoiding the college talk since we were graduating from high school soon. We both knew that something had to give soon. "Charlie." He voice cracked. I looked over at him. He was looked at me with a sort of emotion I couldn't read. He made knots form in my stomach. He leaned in and kissed me, kissed me hard, harder than he ever has in the almost 4 years we have been together. He hovered above me, his eyes staring into mine. I frowned at him.

"Avery, what's wrong?" I asked him wrapping my arms around his neck as we panted from the kiss.

"I love you, so much." He whispers kissing me again. I pulled back from his hungry mouth to look at him. He was keeping something from me.

"I love you too, nothing can ever change that." I ran my hands through his gorgeous jet black hair. He kissed me hard on my lips causing a moan to escape my lips as he ran a hand down my cheek. I pulled at the end of his black t-shirt for him to pull off. He pulled it off before he brought his mouth back on mine. He pulled my shirt as he started to kiss down my neck. I felt his hands start to unzip my jeans and pull them to my ankles. He put his hands on my waist and put me on his bed before pulling them off. I unzipped his fly and pulled him out. He lent his forehead on mine and moaned as I stroked him.

"Oh god Charlie don't stop. Please." He kissed me again, pulling me close as he unclipped my bra and pulled my underwear to my ankles. He slipped a finger in me causing me to moan and go faster on stroking him. He kissed my neck knocking my hand away before thrusting into me. I laid my head on his chest moaning as he thrust harder and harder every time. I let out a long moan as I climaxed. Avery finished right after. We both sat on the bed trying to check our breath.

"Damn, that was good." I snuggled up to him as he wrapped me close to him and kissed my head. I stroked his hair lovingly my eyes closing.

I kissed him lightly again causing him to look down at me from where laid on his pillow. He pulled me up from the bed and wrapped a sheet around me.

"Charlie I love you, never forget that, okay?" He kissed me again but this time it was different. Like a good-bye.

"Avery what's wrong?" I asked looking him over. His face was contorted in a grimace.

"Babe, we, we need to talk." I think my heart just stopped there. Not now, please not now. The famous 'we need to talk' line.

"Avery, please don't do this." I barley whispered.

"Baby this, this relationship can't work when we live for college. We are going to be on the other side of the country from each other. 21 hours away. It's not like I could just pop in the car and come see you. I, I can't do a long distance relationship. I'm sorry." He said looking away from. I couldn't help it my eyes filled with tears.

"But, but, but we can make it work. We can do this. Please don't do this." I tried to fight back the tears but it was no use. He shook his head and just looked down at his knees.

"You're going to Green Bay in Wisconsin and I'm going to Austin, Texas. We can't make this work, not even if I tried. I'm sorry Charlie, I am." I shook my head. It was like there was no emotion on his face. It killed me. 

"Avery no. I know we can do this. I can transfer to the University of Texas with you. I love you. Please." He shook his head.

"No. I don't-" He closed his eyes, "I don't want you to come to college with me. I don't want you."

"You don't mean that." I bit my lip as the pain spread through my chest. 4 years and this is how we are going to end.

"I do." The tears started to flow down my cheeks as my heart shattered around me. He looked up at me and tried to touch my cheek but I turned my head so he missed.

"Don't. Have, have a good life Avery." I quickly pulled all my clothes on messily before pulling on my hoodie. He sat there watching as I opened his door and gave him one last look. "I love you Avery, nothing will ever change that, nothing." I opened the door and ran down the stairs roughly whipping my tears away. I quickly ran out of his house as fast as I could even after I heard his mother calling my name. I ran to my house and right into my bedroom even thought the house was silent since both my Mom and Dad were at work and were till later. I slammed my door shut before dropping onto my bed sobbing. It wasn't the first time I slept with Avery but my heart was breaking into millions and billions of little pieces. I guess I knew it was coming since he got his acceptance letter 3 months ago after I got my letter a week before. Avery got a full scholarshipto play football for the Texas Longhorns. I was so proud of him. I heard the front door open and my Dad's voice call my name into the house. He walked into my room.

"Hey Charlie baby what's wrong?" He asked as he saw me curled up on my bed sobbing. He pulled me into a tight hug letting me cry on his shoulder.

"We broke up you. Daddy what am I going to do without him?" I sobbed. He stroked my messy hair.

"You're going to just have to, Baby." He sighed moving to stroke my wet cheek. "You're going to get through this." I felt the tears stop as I lay silently in his strong warm arms as they held me close. "What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger."

*****

Graduation sucked. People say that your high school graduation is the best thing but it wasn't for me. I was depressed from the break up, which as only 3 days before. We were on the stage where we waited for our diplomas. I was really zoned out so the only name I head before mine was his. "Avery Carter." I fought back the tears as I watched him walk up and shake the principal's hand and take his diploma. "Charlotte Ryans." I got out of my seat and shook the principal's hand and took my diploma. I walked off the stage and smiled at my parents. My dad hugged me then mom. My eyes drifted over to watch as Avery's parents hugged him. I felt my dad pull me into a hug so I couldn't look at him anymore.

"If you love someone let them free, because if it's true love they will come back, if not he's still out there. Let fate take it's course baby." He whispered into my ear. I held onto him tighter fighting the urge to cry, once again. I pulled back to see Avery staring at me. He looked down as I locked eyes with him. "You want to go Baby?" I gave one last look at Avery before nodding. My friends no longer cared for me since he left. They only wanted him, not me. I guess I never realized who my true friends were, till now. Dad held his arm around me as we walked out of the gym leaving my past, which I once thought was my future, behind me.