BRAVE HEART

Brave heart :part 1

I was 17 when I first got kicked out of my mom's crib, I thought it was going to be easy because of how everybody made it seem. I was in a world that seemed so freeing at the time.I didn't have to worry about nobody telling me what to do. I didn't have to worry about no one saying anything to me anymore.I think that's what I was more afraid of. I can no longer hear that voice inside of me that can tell me when things were right and wrong. my mom would always tell me “the streets will never love you”. I thought I had friends but in this situation  I was all the way wrong. I have this one friend named Maya. She is tall, lightskin jawn, braces, and glasses. She always wears the nice bamboos from the beauty supply up the street. She always had big dreams. HOOP Dreams. But here's the thing we from the hood dont Nobody ever make it out of. Unless they are known or popular. I come from a city called Hoodaville. Her man was the star of our varsity team at the time. We went wayyyyyy back. Yeah she dont know that though. I'd like to keep it that way for now.

I stay at this place called the trap. I've been staying at Maya's place with her mom , her sister Dior and Kenny, Maya's boyfriend. She dont really got a dad she like me . my dad passed when i was three,hers left. I think that's why we bonded so  much.  It's been a couple days since my mom gave me a call. It seemed like the  only thing she let me keep was my phone and let me tell you I made a lot of money. It didn't happen overnight oh, okay I guess it kind of did. Everything that had happened with my mom started getting to me. We went from talking every day to not really talking at all. I had to do more to spend time to distract myself and my mind from what was really going on.I  would  spend most of my time  watching YouTube videos. and then I realize one day I'm wasting all of my time I can just take out my camera and start recording. So I did. I pulled out my phone damn! I realize that I had a fucking driod.  I was sick but okay anyways I'm really not conceited but of course my face is my home screen and lock screen.so i  unlock my phone.  I don't know why but for some reason I'm really nervous right now. “I don't even know what to talk about” “ will they like me” “ would  they actually watch my videos”.  these are all the things that are going through my head before I open my camera app. I stop and I look around and I realize that my room is a f****** mess. so I grabbed my shoes and I moved my shoes out of the way of the camera. I cleared off my dresser  and I set my phone up. I realize that I still got some weed that we rolled from last night. “ Hot Box '' was the first thing that popped into my head. So that's exactly what I did: I opened my drawer and grabbed my pink lighter and i helded it to my blunt and I lit it and I started smoking. Oh shit!   I'm ready to tell the  story now my mom really  tweaked. It really wasn’t the first time and I’m sure it won’t be the last.

 “ Im ready” sigh* ight for real I'm ready now “okay i say to  myself as i sit down on my bed in front of the camera. I wouldn't really say this is a room , it's a garage that's fully furnished for me. Maya's mom's real dope for letting me stay here. I gotta stay focus cause yooo im high as fuck right now. Damn i looked back at my phone a whole hour went by. I didn’t realize I had just been sitting eating snacks that I got from the kitchen. I had some Doritos sitting laid out next to me and some Reesie‘s from the day before. I finally get up and look at my phone and I say to myself again I’m ready. So I pick my camera up and i said “ Hey guys Its ya girl the real dom nicole and we are back with anotha video, im gonna be telling yall about the time my moms really tweaked on me cause of what she found in my phone.

Ight so boom! I’m outside at the park with my Friend maya. We talking and I realized as I’m checking my pockets I don’t have my phone. So I know for a fact how my mom is. I know she’s going to say something if I’m not answering my phone. So I asked my friend can we walk back to my house so I can get my phone just in case my mom calls. We walking back to my house and talking you know girl talk. When I get to my house I realize that my door was left unlocked .I stopped and I just stood there and I slowly open the door. My mom Was waiting at the door. I jumped as soon as I seen her because she scared me the room was so dark I could barely see especially without my glasses. She walked up to me and she approached me and she started trying to interrogate me because  she saw some suspicious messages from a guy that she didn’t know On my phone. She was a strict parent so she didn’t want me having no type of relations or relationships. I Understood why she wanted me to focus on you know my goals in my career. But I guess I couldn’t help the fact that I was still young and I wanted what I wanted. I guess during this time we just didn’t really see eye to eye