Meant To Be, Or Not? - [YEONGYU FF]

Author's Note 📝

*slowly peeks behind wall of pillows stacked up as a protection barrier*

Hi.

So. I'm a couple days late to posting this because I've been back to school for like two weeks and I managed to write everything still left of this book before summer break was ever, except for the author's note. Which is here now.

Anyways

*clears throat*

Meant To Be, Or Not..., my very first non Taebin or Beomkai fanfic, has officially come to its end.

Judging from the comments under the epilogue of this book, I can imagine that a lot of you are probably holding onto wet tissues right now because of what went down.

I'm pretty sure that after three days the question you might still have is: 'PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LK I BEG OF YOU, GIVE ME A DIFFERENT ENDING I CAN'T HANDLE ANY OF THIS BULLSHIT; DON'T TELL ME THIS IS THE END 😭' or 'LK PLEASE GIVE US AN AFTERSTORY WHERE THEY END UP TOGETHER'.

I'm sorry lovelies, but I have break it to you: Meant To Be, Or Not... was always supposed to end this way.

Yeah, you heard me right just now.

It was always meant to end in a way that Beomgyu will end up alone, and Yeonjun will return to Soobin.

And for me, the way their journey came to an end was realistic.

Yeonjun and Beomgyu were thrown in a predicament where they had to get along eventually to make it work. It would've never happened otherwise, because neither of the two were on good terms prior to when the book first began. As soon as they were forced into this arranged marriage, logically speaking, they both knew they couldn't keep their rivalry going if they were going to live together for who knew how long.

As they slowly started warming up to one another, two things happened at once.

Beomgyu fell in love with Yeonjun because he could open up about things he never did with anyone with him. He saw how Yeonjun saw right through him which made him trust him, and because of how Yeonjun accepted him for his true thoughts, that's what made him fall for him.

Unlike Yeonjun, this was Beomgyu's first love, so of course he was going to be naive, or at least not very experienced in love.

Which is what differs him from Yeonjun.

Yeonjun on the other hand had been in love before. He knew how it felt being in love with Soobin and he knew and was sure that he'll always be in love with him. Beomgyu made him confused and conflicted; did he love him, or was he still loyal to his partner of many years? I can relate to Yeonjun with this, because it's happened to me before where I was unsure if I liked somebody or not. And as harsh as it may sound, sometimes when an opportunity is presented to you where you can clearly escape the dilemma loop, you'll take it.

The moment Beomgyu told him they no longer need to get married, Yeonjun took the opportunity to leave and put an end to this cycle, which was indeed a selfish move of him.

Making Yeonjun rather selfish in this book was hard, because I know that in real life he ain't like that, but:
    1. It's a fanfic and
    2. It adds to my plot.

At the end of the day, people can't be perfect. I feel like sometimes, I write my characters being too perfect. So that's why I wanted him to be someone that is more flawed, and also had to learn that he made many wrong decisions by not letting Beomgyu speak. In the end, it severely backfired on him, because as soon as he left, his feelings deep down for Beomgyu became all the more clearer.

It's like eating dust.

For me, that phrase means a lot of things.

Sometimes, we make decisions that we regret.

Sometimes, in life, we can't change things for the better.

Sometimes, we cannot change the way things are going; we have little to no control over what happens in the future.

Sometimes, you have to accept things just the way they either turn out to be, or the way they are.

In this story, Yeonjun and Beomgyu bit dust a bunch of times.

Starting already when Yeonjun lost his dad, then had to part ways with his boyfriend, then with both him and Beomgyu being thrown into a difficult fate, and then finishing off with Beomgyu losing his job as his parents' company went bankrupt, and with Beomgyu having to accept that Yeonjun didn't feel the same way as he did.

At least he thought.

Both main characters learned how to bite the dust, and to just move on and accept the things they wouldn't be able to change.

It's bittersweet, and that is what Meant To Be, Or Not... is about: Sometimes, things just do not work out, and unfortunately we gotta accept it, as well as things we cannot change about our life. We have little to no control over it, and I myself struggle with accepting that too.

I feel like I'm ranting too much and making little sense, so lemme wrap this up quick.

I wanna just say that I really enjoyed writing this. It's kinda fascinating to me that time went by quickly, three and a half months passed since the first chapter was published.

Thank you so much to all of you who read this book from start to end, and still gave it so much love regardless of the ending. I appreciate you all so much, even if I'm bad at expressing it. I can't believe we're already at 4K reads and 300+ votes, and ranked #3 in Beomjun, so... really, thank you.

Whether or not this is the only Yeongyu book I'll ever write, I'm not sure of, but I definitely will write more oneshots about them. If you wish to stay tuned, make sure to follow me and check out my oneshot books for more :) if you plan to end your journey with me here too, thank you for being on the boat sailor.

And thank you Meant To Be, Or Not... for being a good one too 💕

With love, Author LK 🫂