Lost forever, (SBG)

Part 1 ...The Aftermath

Ashlyn walked into school, feeling hateful.

She hated that it was Monday.

She hated that everything still went on like nothing happened.

She hated how Barron still bullied her and Logan.

She hated how she was still alive and he wasn't.

She walked over to her friend group, the loss of him sagging over them like a wet cloth.

It would never be the same with out his manic smile, wild blond hair or piercing red eyes.

Aiden Clark was dead.

It had been almost six months since the Suicide.

Six months since he took his own life.

Six months since his parents shrugged it off, saying they weren't surprised.

Six months.

And everyday in that six months Ashlyn Banner had been slowly, slowly, going mad.

You never realise how dependant you are on someone until they leave you.

Just that night Ashlyn had been contemplating taking her own life.

But she knew her friends couldn't handle it.

They were all still coping with Aidens death.

"Uhm, well, good morning everyone," Taylor said, still trying to be Optimistic.

Ash tried to smile, but fuck it, she couldn't smile before, let alone now.

"Let's just, go to class.. please" said Logan with a tired expression.

So they all walked off to class, and went through the day the same way they went through everyday.

In cold, hard, silence.

The end? Right?

That night, Ashlyn couldn't take it.

She felt like peeling the skin of her body.

Every time, she zoned out, the voices would call out to her, reminding her that he wasn't here anymore, but she was.

Fuck.

Have you ever felt so uncomfortable in your own skin you just wanted to slam your head into the desk multiple times.

That's how Ash felt.

Dumping her bag outside of her bed she stormed into her room, slamming the door shut, and flopping onto the bed in complete darkness.

She screamed into her pillow, she screamed until she couldn't feel her throat anymore, she screamed until she felt like all her voice had been drained out of her body like water washing down a drain.

Her phone pinged, and she picked it up, looking at the groupchat.

Geography assignment

Taylorswipht:

Hey, is everyone okay?

BitchWithABat:

When are we ever okay.

Taylorswipht:

Jeez sorry for asking.

Ash sighed, and the worst part about this shit stain was that his number was still on the groupchat.

She hated Aiden.

Why did that idiot have to take his own life.

Selfish bastard.