Bully | Beomjun / Yeongyu

Chapter 5

He turns to face Beomgyu, who is standing in the middle of the room, looking nervous and confused.

Yeonjun sighs, rubbing a hand over his face.

"Look... I...I just wanted to talk to you...alone." He says, avoiding eye contact.

"O...o-okay..."

He takes a deep breath, trying to find the right words.

"I just...I wanted to say...that I'm sorry for what happened earlier...in the hallway."

Beomgyu's eyes widen slightly. Yeonjun has never apologised to him before. "w-why?"

Yeonjun sighs again, still avoiding eye contact.

"Look...I know how I've treated you in the past, I know how my friends and I have bullied you and picked on you. It's, well...it's not good. And it's not alright to treat you like that. So, I'm...I'm sorry."

Beomgyu's eyes are still wide in shock.

"Y...you've never felt bad about it before...why now? I-is it because of w-what happened the other night?" He asks quietly.

Yeonjun's heart sinks as he hears the question.

"Yeah...I guess that's part of it. Seeing you almost in danger...it just made me realise how shitty I've been to you, for no good reason."

Beomgyu nods looking a little less confused now. "I...I see...um...t-thank you..."

Yeonjun lets out another sigh, still avoiding eye contact.

"Yeah...well, the thing is...I...there's something else I wanted to talk to you about."

Beomgyu looks up at him, his eyes wide again.

"O-oh...what is it?"

Yeonjun takes a deep breath and rubs a hand through his hair.

"This is going to sound kind of weird...but, well...I just need to know something."

Beomgyu tilts his head to the side, confusion etched onto his face.

"W-what do you want to know?"

Yeonjun closes his eyes, taking another deep breath before continuing.

"This might be a weird question, but...how do you feel about me?"

"F-feel about you?"

Yeonjun winces at his own question, knowing how strange it sounds.

"I mean...do you hate me? Do you think I'm a bad person? Are you glad to be finally talking to me, or do you wish you were anywhere else but here with me?"

Beomgyu's eyebrows furrow as he thinks about the question. He's never really thought about it before. Yes, Yeonjun and his friends had tormented him, but there had been small moments where Beomgyu thought...maybe Yeonjun wasn't all bad. Those small moments of kindness Yeonjun had shown him confused Beomgyu. It was clear to see that Yeonjun had a mean, nasty side. But Beomgyu also saw a side to him that was kind and gentle.

"I...I...I don't r-really know...I guess...w-when you're with your friends...you're more..."

Beomgyu struggles to find the right words and he doesn't want to anger Yeonjun if it comes out sounding offensive.

"I mean...t-the few times I-I've been alone with you...y-you've been...different...."

Yeonjun nods, understanding the boy's struggle to find the right words.

"Different, huh...? Yeah, I guess I have been...."

He finally looks up at Beomgyu, making direct eye contact for the first time.