Fragile (Jack Gilinsky)

Fragile- Part 25

It was getting very late and Worlds was tomorrow and I was so scared I had no idea what to do. I didn't know what was going to happen I didn't know if i could pull it off. I had no faith in myself my mother had no faith in me, and i didn't have the boys to come and support me. I had no reason to race anymore, other then out of passion, which saying it now sounds like the only reason I should be racing.

I unlocked my phone only to see a text from Jack.

from gilly☺️❤️:

You are probably asleep because you have to get up at 5 tomorrow. But I just need you to know that that leaving you without doing or saying anything was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life. I care about you more then you know. I love everything about you. All the things you don't love about yourself I love them even more. I know you and your mom don't have the relationship you wish you guys could have. But I am always here for you no matter what. I know I was a not a good boyfriend to you. I get jealous easily and I'm so sorry, but having Madison around made me realize that I have the most perfect girl ever. The way your long brown hair made cute little curls when it got wet and dried. The way your beautiful brown eyes hold so much emotion that you try to hide. The way as soon as you see the bmx track and get on your bike your so happy that no one can bring you down. I love the height difference between us because your short and I think it's so cute. I love you alexi. More then you know. Now I'm ending this. But I know your going to kill it out there tomorrow. I know you can beat everyone. We all believe in you.

To Gilly☺️❤️: I can't sleep. I am so worried about the outcome of tomorrow. My life is a mess without you here. I miss being able to kiss you and cuddle with you. I love you so much no matter what stupid things you do😡💖 you are my sunshine and without you I don't Jack. Please. If you love me like you say. Why can't you show me that way? Anyways. That was such a sweet message and I love you. But goodnight. And thank you and the boys💛💛

And then I hit send. I set an alarm for 4 am cause I still have to get ready and get to the track. And then I shut my phone off and fell into a deep sleep. My last thought was of how much I miss and need Jack.

My phone started blasting Cinderella man by Eminem. That is my favorite song. Then I realized it was my alarm and that today was the day of worlds. I started freaking out. I plugged my phone into the speakers and started playing Budapest while I danced around and got ready. I changed into my lulu lemon shorts my Adidas sports bra and put my bmx pants and jersey on.
Helmet CHECK
two gloves CHECK
chest protector CHECK
tool box CHECK
I was just making sure I had everything. And my bike was already at the track. So I grabbed my stuff and called a taxi. The trip was about 5 minutes. I got there at 5 am and practice was at 5:30 so I was early.
SKIP TO PRACTICE
I was watching all the other riders go around and man were they so fast. And then it was my turn. I just threw in some small easy tricks and just absorbed the track so I knew when to pedal and where to stay. As I crossed the finish line I heard and bunch of clapping and cheering. I look around only to see the boys. All of them. Here. For me. I wish I could see my face because I had the biggest smile on my face. I went over and put my bike by the stands near all my stuff. I put my helmet down and ran and jumped right into jacks arms. I embraced him being here. We just hugged each other for so long. I looked at him and gave him such a big kiss. This kiss held so much emotion. Everyone started clapping. I was happy. Happier then I have been in a very long time.

"Why are you guys here?" I asked them all.

"We came for you" Jack said

"Because your part of the family now" Cam said giving me a hug.

"I love you guys" I said embracing all of them into a group hug.

"MOTTOS ARE POSTED" the announcer said into the microphone. I ran over and wrote my mottos onto my piece of tape. Oh my god this is going to be a long day.

*SKIP TO HER FIRST MOTTO*

"Okay bye guys it's almost my time" I said getting really nervous.

I heard a bunch of good lucks and kick ass Lexi. I put all my gear on and grabbed my bike and I headed up to the    start hill. I could feel my body shaking from how nervous I was. I was waiting for the other mottos to finish before mine started. I noticed 6 other girls who are also waiting to go up. If they are racing me we would almost have a full gate because there is only 8 gates. Finally it was my motto.
*N plates are national plates you have to race nationals before worlds*
"Alright first up is plate N4 in gate 1" The girl that was doing mottos said. And then the girl with the N4 plate went up.

"Then can I have plate N8 in gate 2" The lady said and the girl went up.

"Next I need plate N2 in gate 3" The lady said.
HOLY SHIT THATS ME. I started freaking out as I walked my bike.

I gave the lady a nice smile and said thank you. And I waited in front of my gate for the other girls.

Then all the other girls joined us. And we all set up in the gates and got ready to go.

"RIDERS READY..." The speaker said.
Then I stood up and got my self balanced and in the groove of what I was doing.

"WATCH THE GATE.."

3 beeps after and we were all racing down the hill trying to get to first place. I was racing my ass off. I was peddling everywhere I could even if it was just one pedal. I pumped with both my arms and legs as hard as I could to gain speed. I remember all the practice I had and all the tips from my coaches. I remembered what my favorite elite rider told me when I was 7.

"Remember you do this out of passion. It's you and your bike against the world. Race like its the only thing That matters." His name was Ed and man was he good. He was like my big brother. He taught me what I know now. He's a champion now.

From the looks of it I was in second place and I was not far behind. I was freaking out. All I need to remember is what Ed told me and always make sure rubber side down.

We are now going around the second corner and when going around corners always take a high low and always take the low part.

Going around I took the high low with the girl in first and I moved up to first place, I heard a few bike hit the paved corners and realized that some of them had just crashed.

We are now going around the third corner and I am still in first although the girl in second is on my ass. I took the corner low making her go high and I still kept my first place. I noticed the finish like on a straight and two doubles away from me. Man I hope I pull this off.

Pump the first double.

Pedaled the straight.

And pumped the first double crossing the finish line IN FIRST BABY. I couldn't stop smiling I was so happy. Now if I could race like that for my other two mottos. The rest of the girls crossed the finish line and we all did what every rider does after every race which is like a hand while I guess and a fist bump it kinda means good race and good job. I was so happy I put my stuff away grabbed some water and ran over to the boys. They all hugged me and said good job and I'm proud of you. I smiled at all of them and said
"Thanks guys I couldn't do it with out you" I went and hugged Jack.

"Baby you just got first!" Jack said in a very happy voice.

"Only because of you and the boys, I didn't think I could do it" I told him a little out of breath from pushing myself so hard. Then I noticed Madison was here. I just rolled my eyes.

What a bitch.