Matt Sturniolo

Another Sleepless Night

'I told them that I'd be going to bed early tonight. That was hours ago. I can't sleep. My mind is running multiple miles an hour.

No matter how much I want to sleep, I just can't.

My ears feel clogged in a way... or as if they are ringing. Its probably the anxiety and depression mixing together but-'

I hear my door open and I quickly shove the notebook and pencil into my nightstand.

"Can I sleep with you?" Chris asked as he walked into my room, closing the door behind him.

"Uh-" I look down at my shaking hands before sighing. "Yeah. Sure."

I give him a quick smile before covering myself with a blanket.

"Damn. You cold or something?" Chris asks as he sits down on the bed next to me.

I shrug. "Just tired." I respond.

"You okay?" I hear Chris ask as he puts his hand on my shoulder.

"Yeah..." I say as I yawn.

He doesn't seem to believe me but he doesn't say another word. He lays down and gives me a hug before turning his back to me and going to sleep.

The whole night I stay awake, scared and yet numb. Sad and yet tired and angry for no apparent reason. All I know is that I've been feeling like this for the past two weeks and it all started due to a stupid joke made in a stupid video that we never ended up posting.

I sigh as the sun starts to peak through the window. I close my eyes, completely out of it, and finally, I somehow fall asleep.

"Matt, Matt." I hear someone call.

I open my eyes and I see Nick.

"Finally." Nick sighs. "I've been trying to wake you up for the past few minutes."

I bite my lip, nervous and tired.

"What is it?" I whisper.

"We gotta film, remember?" He reminds me.

I look down and I close my eyes, drawing out all sounds around me and falling back asleep.

Nick stays there, staring at me as I sleep. He sighs and feels bad and confused. He leaves me alone, turning the lights off and going downstairs to tell Chris what happened.