Love Me Worse 2

Out Of The Weakness Into The Healing

Andrea P.O.V

This chapter is dedicated to underdogs,to all the motherfucking survivers,the resilient,the undefeated

If you ever made it through something you thought you never could this is for you

When My Auntie and Devante checked me into this mental health wellness place it wasnt like a mental hospital with crazy people or anything like that honestly it was like a spa

Its people getting massages they had golfing a cafe I mean they had every kind of therapy you can think of from sound to sleep therapy

The accommodations were nice I don't know how my auntie found out about this place I just know it was like a mini resort

It was just weird being away from my family and work  I didn't even see Devante or my kids for a whole month after undergoing treatment

I experience what they call Psychosis

Psychosis-is a break with reality where the thoughts and perceptions of a person become disrupted

Going through what Ive been through it was only a matter of time before mentally I broke down

Its alot things I just hold inside of me alot of trauma and built up anxiety it explains why I work so hard

I be thinking long as I stay busy I wont have to deal with the things that hurt me inside

If i dont deal with it it doesn't hurt but I was wrong it still hurts and pain is pain no matter what form its in

It had been a whole month before I started to feel better I was missing my kids and Devante so much

Since I was feeling better I asked  Devante to bring the bring the kids up during visitor day to see them

I was just so nervous to see them It been a whole month and I haven't seen them

Even though I hated that my kids have to come see  here to see me here

So I was just anxiously waiting in the visitor room nervous as hell waiting to see all their faces

Devante P.O.V

Im in car with the kids and we driving up to see Drizz she about a two hours away

"Daddy is we almost there yet"Santana asked me who was riding upfront with me

"Almost We about 25 minutes away listen when we get in here you gotta be strong for ya mama she needs us right now"I said

"But Why can't she come home with us then"He asked

"She can't come home until she better Santana"I said

"But I want her back home"He said

Santana is mamas boy

Him and Drizz got this tight loving ass bond he ask me about his mama atleast four times a day

"She gon be back home soon Santana...."I said

"When is soon"He asked

"Soon is soon"I said

We pulled in the parking lot

Nyla knocked out sleep in the back

I looked over and Santana is wiping his tears quickly

"Aw man you can't gon in here crying you know if she see you crying she gon cry too "I said to him

"Im sorry"He said as tears streamed from his eyes

I took a napkin and wiped his eyes "you gotta be strong like daddy I want mama home too but I know right now this is where she needs to be"