In Loving Memory - Dedicated to a Suicide Victim

shipwrecked in an ocean of blue

I'm alive
In my mind
My ocean of blue tells me my truth...

Rip out my eyes so I can't see the truth,
I'm lost and displaced in an ocean of blue
I'm a freak and a failure in the lines I can't sue
Thrown to the side because there's no telling why

Drowned down, shipwrecked in a wrecked state,
Ocean of blue keeping me from being awake
At night, my head tells me lies I can not detest
I just want to protect my thoughts...

Please just
Rip out my eyes so I can't see the truth
I'm lost and displaced in an ocean of blue
I'm a freak and a failure in the lines I can't sue
Thrown to the side because there's no telling why
There's no point in trying to hide the lies you fantasise from the way I polarise your insides.

You know this world is a lie, we can make our own demise and destroy our own eyes with bleach and fantasies, I just want to beg you to show truth that I'm just as broken as you, and there's no chance you can tell me I'm not true, when my emotions take over it's all about you.

Just fucking rip out my eyes so I can't see the truth
I'm lost and displaced in an ocean of blue
I'm a freak and a failure in the lines I can't sue
Thrown to the side because there's no telling why...

Fucking rip out my eyes like I fantasize you're the truth, but you're just a lie in an ocean of blue, shipwrecked me on the sand where I reside, my lies will kill you too much, I can't bare to look at you, I can't bare to sleep at night when I'm

I'm lost and displaced in an ocean of blue
I'm a freak and a failure in the lines I can't sue
Thrown to the side because there's no telling why...

You invade my mind...
You tell me lies...
You're dead now
You're dead now
You're dead now....

Torment my mind like there's no telling why,
The truth is you lie and you make me believe that you're fine, but you never are, before you can't ever be as far away as you are now...

Let me drown
Let me drown
Let me drown
Let me drown
Let me drown in an ocean of blue

Rip out my eyes, I see the truth of you
Why are you just a soul in my room?
My thoughts locked against my walls,
I just want to fuck everything,

My life
My time
My home
My thoughts

Who are you to declare who wins war?

Rip out my eyes so I can't see the truth,
I'm lost and displaced in an ocean of blue
I'm a freak and a failure in the lines I can't sue
Thrown to the side because there's no telling why

Night times seen violent
And you're just malevolent

You killed yourself and spirits haunt me like you're still crying for help
My guilt is my issue, I can not dispel why you even want to show me who you are, or why you are here or why you're going to be around me...

I want to rid of the pain
I feel your gaze
Standing in an ocean of blue
On a shipwreck sinking down into the room

My walls are broken
My thoughts are drowned
Why are you the one telling me to be damned?

Ocean of blue...
Sinking.
Standing...

My thoughts are with you.
My thoughts are with you.
My thoughts are with you.
My thoughts are with you.

Am I going crazy
Maybe?
Oh you can't face me
Take me, take me.
Take me to your special place

I'll see you soon again,
soon I presume,
We will make amends
Though you're buried deep down
In lies that are profound
You might be found around this town again soon
There's no reason to see two moons

Oh throw me down in an ocean of blue...

I miss you
I grieve for you

But I'm trapped down in my ocean of you...