I Hate you, I Love you

Broken trust

TSUKASA'S POV:

I waited for Rui to come even though I know that I wouldn't forgive no matter what.. He can probably make lies quickly like every body else.. So I don't trust him anymore.

While waiting for him to come I decided to text toya first

_________________Toya_________________

"Hi Toya"

"Oh, hey Tsukasa senpai, I know what happend by the way. Saki told me, I don't like that Rui guy anymore"

"I want to try to dislike him too but.. I just can't I don't know why:("

"Well maybe you LOVE him? "

"I mean before the incident I guess yeah, I loved him, but I'm not sure right now if I still love him or not because of the fact he cheated on me"

"Well, maybe you should try talking to him actually and see if he actually did that and if he did, please try to move on"

"Mhm, I'll try to do that"

"Okay, good Tsukasa senpai. Because I care for you"

"Ohh thank you and also I hear my doorbell it's probably Rui so I have to go now, bye toyaa"

"Byee"

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I wiped my tears and went to the door then opening it next. I saw the purple haired boy with a sad face in front of the door but I wouldn't trust him anymore.

"Hey Tsukasa kun.. Let's go to your bedroom to talk about this okay..? "

"Fine."

We both went to my bedroom then I sat on my bed beside him, I don't understand why I still felt a bit of butterflies when I'm next to him..

"So Tsukasa kun.. What you saw was wrong.. I promise.. I would never do that.. " He said with a tear shedding down, I didn't care at all, well.. Atleast I tried not to

"Yeah right. The video was real. Tour hair, the shadows, and everything looked realistic, plus, that Kenji guy looked a bit more handsome than me so I already know you did cheat on me. " I said while trying not to cry, but it was getting harder and harder each second,

I just wanted to lean on Rui and let all my feelings out but HE was the one that did it HE was the one that Broke me badly

"Tsukasa kun.. " He hugged me tightly "I promise.. Please believe me.. I didn't do that at all! You are my only love and I would not choose anybody else over you.. "

I couldn't help it anymore, I started to cry, but it was tears of anger "NO! I KNOW YOU ARE TRYING TO DECIEVE ME! YOUR LOOKS, PERSONALITY, AND EVERYTHING MAKES EVERYONE FALL FOR YOU INCLUDING ME AND YOU ONLY GOT WITH ME TO BREAK ME, COME BACK, THEN BREAK ME AGAIN!" I cried even more.

Rui looked broken, he patted my back so my cries would become lesser and lesser "Tsukasa kun.. You are my only love.. You were my enemy and then I fell in love" He was starting to cry too and I couldn't help but feel bad

"And.. I would never do that okay..? I-"

Before he could finish I decided to yell something I thought I wouldn't regret later "NO. YOUR MAKING ME CONSIDER MY FEELINGS FOR YOU, PLEASE. I DON'T WANT TO FALL FOR YOU AGAIN. GO OUT OF MY HOUSE. "

Rui nodded and gave a weak smile, But before he left, he placed a photo frame on my bed.. When he left I went to see what it was..

It was a picture of me and Rui cuddling before.. Is he trying to make me fall for him again just to break me..? Or he is genuinely sorry..? I believed the first one so I went outside of my house and put a small fire so I could throw it

Just as I was about to.. I stopped.. I didn't know why though, my body was telling me not to.. I knew I fell in love harder if not again with Rui.. I just stopped the fire then went back to my bedroom

I hugged the picture frame

"I wish Rui never cheated on me.. "

"I wish I didn't fall in love.. "

"I wish I never went to this school.. "

"I wish I was never alive"

Saki heard me say that and quickly ran into my room with toya

"Niisan! What are you saying..? "

"Uh.. Just some things I wish.. "

"Tsukasa senpai.. " Toya and Saki hugged me tightly

"Tsukasa senpai/niisan please tell us, we are your siblings and I/Toya might not be our biological sibling but You/we see me/him as your sibling.. We care for you.. "

My heart got a bit warmed and hugged Toya and Saki tightly, To the point they could barely breath, but they luckily didn't mind

"Tsukasa senpai, just rest your head in me or saki's shoulder and rest.. You need to remove that stress.. "

I nodded and rest my head on saki's shoulder, Saki and Toya smiled at me and we stayed in that position until the three of us fell asleep, it was going to be like a sibling Bonding.. I love Saki and Toya so much, they have never left me or betrayed me, unlike SOMEONE

We woke up two hours after we fell asleep and to be honest, we slept pretty Comfortably

"Ohayo/morning Tsukasa senpai"

"Ohayo/morning niisan! "

"Ah! Ohayo/morning Saki and Toya! "

"Niisan do you feel better? "

"Yes Saki, I feel a bit better, but it because of you both.. Thank you so much for supporting me at my hardest days like this.. "

"Of course Tsukasa senpai.. A real sibling bond like me, you, and Saki will never end.. We will be like this until the day we die"

The three of us giggled and and giggled, I felt better and I was honestly greatful for that.

I thought for a moment that I finally moved on from Rui but little did I know what would happen the next day..

"Hey Saki and Toya, I think I'm finally going to school tomorrow! "

"Ohh! Good job niisan! "

"I'm so proud for you, Tsukasa senpai! "

" Hehe thank you guys, and Toya, you don't need to call me Tsukasa senpai. You can just call me Tsukasa or a brother name"

"Okay Tsukasa! "

At night time after we ate dinner, I tucked myself to bed and got ready for the upcoming day because I knew deep down to my heart that there would be A LOT of drama