Insecure || Minsung

Chapter 1

Jisung pov
I've always wanted a normal life. A happy life. Where my mom was still alive, where my dad would still love and support me.

But obviously, dreams don't become reality. I wake up due to heart burns. I get up quietly to grab my bottle of pills on my desk. After drinking the pill I go back to my bed sitting down.

When I wake up for five minutes during the night I can never find my way back sleep again. I've never been able to sleep during the day either, I've tried but its never really worked for me. That's why I'm considering on buying tranquilizers but I haven't had the time.

I decided to connect my earphones and listen to some music to wait for the night to pass. After the sun was rising I slowly got up from my bed feeling sore. I put on a black t-shirt along with some baggy black sweatpants.

I put on an oversized black jacket along with some black dirty converse. I head to my desk, putting bracelets on my wrists all the way to my elbows.

I grab my phone, earphones and my bag as I quietly go down the stairs to avoid waking up my dad but I fail.

I freeze as I see him holding an empty glass beer bottle. "The fuck you looking at gay fag". I look down at the floor, scared to talk.

"fucking disappointment" He throws the bottle at me, hitting the corner of my head then my shoulder. "Fucking leave what are you waiting for!"

I leave the house as my vision turns blurry. God I hate my life. After I close the door I fall to the ground as blood drips down my head.

I chuckle to myself while getting an alcohol pad and some bandages out of my bag, quickly cleaningthe blood off my jacket and head.

I get up dizzy, yet blasting my music to the max level, not a single care of what could happen. I enter the school doors as I meet with my bully. My lucky day.

He drags me to the nearest bathroom and starts pushing me against the wall. Not stopping as I fall to the ground groaning, he kicks me in the stomach even when I cough blood out. "You stupid fag" he chuckles as he leaves the bathroom.

I stay on the floor for a few minutes before getting up and washing all the blood out of my mouth. I quickly get my bag as I head to class. I couldn't say hi to Felix this time.

I sit down all the way in the back next to the window as I put my backpack on my desk, I then lay my head on it. "Ok class listen up!" I take a deep breath as I put my earphones away.

"We have a new student, come in" I see her smiling as a tall male enters the room. He was good looking and obviously all the girls were already turning hella red. it's his first day and he's probably having the best day already.

He's cute, his nose is pretty, his heart shaped lips and his fluffy looking hair. I wish I was that pretty. "Hello my name is Lee Minho, I hope we can all become friends" I sigh as I take my phone out, scrolling on insta.

"Welcome Leeknow, you can sit wherever you'd like" I look up to see him already looking at me. As he slowly approaches me I hear two girls whispering. "Don't sit there, he's a disgusting fag".

The two girls laugh as I put my earphones on as I lay my head down. I'm used to this. "So?" I heard him past my loud music surprisingly, leaving the two girls in shock and disgust. I keep my eyes closed pretending like I didn't hear.

I feel cold air swish as he sits next to me. I decided to pretend to sleep to avoid socializing and it seemed to work. After a two hours in that class I got my earphones off and did a bit of work to avoid getting in trouble.

I never really did anything in class since I was always ahead but I wanted to seem busy. After an hour I could hear the boy next to me mumbling, he probably thinks I'm weird already.

I take a deep breath as I put my earphones on again for another 30 minutes. The bell finally rings.
I quickly put my phone in my back pocket as I remove my earphones, putting them in my bag.

As I walk through the hallway I feel someone follow me. I stop for a sec and see the person stop too. I shake it off and continue to walk.

Until I felt someone tap on my shoulder. I turn around to see the same tall pretty guy. "Uh sorry to bother you but can I follow you to the lunch room? I don't know where it is".

I stay quiet for a few seconds. I hate socializing. I manage to nod. I continue to walk but this time he walks next to me all happy and smiling.

Right when I enter the lunch room I'm met with Felix hugging me. I hug back tightly. His hugs help me with my rough days. Which is basically everyday.

"Hi baby" he smiles brightly at me. "Hi lix" I manage to smile as I break the hug. Not realizing the boy that followed me was standing next to me awkwardly.

"Oh uh sorry thank you" He smiles and bows before walking away alone. I felt bad for some reason. I nod in response as Felix drags me to the table we usually sit at. "Isn't that the new kid everyone is talking about?"

I shrug. "I'm not sure but he asked me where the lunch room was" I mumble as I bring my phone out. "You're in the same class? That's nice!" I look at him while I pout. "No it's not nice. He looks like a person who likes socializing."

"You guys can be friends! It would be nice to have another friend you know?" I take a deep breath as I look away. "Sorry i didn't mean it like that, I mean I just don't want you to be alone in that class" he holds my hand.

"Its fine Lix, I'm pretty sure he's heard the rumors, I wouldn't want to be friends with me if I were him" I mumble as I go on my phone to distract myself but Felix grabs it.

"Baby please? If he try's then you try too". He smiles and I stay quiet. "Fine" I mumble as I roll my eyes.

"Promise?" He holds a pinky out. "Promise" I smile softly as I wrap my pinkie with his.

NEW BOOK CAUSE IM GOING ON BREAK SOON!!!

AH IM ACTUALLY LIKING THIS PLOT! BRU IM TRYING TO IMPROVE MY WRITING.

ANYWAYS I ACTUALLY WANT TO TRY MORE FOR THIS BOOK CAUSE YEAH!

HOW ARE YOU GUYSS? HOWS LIFE ^_^

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