Let me in? Luke hemmings

Chapter 1

Bethany POV~
Hi, my name.. Bethany and no, you can't call me Beth or B. It's Bethany, only certain people can call me those names so it's Bethany. Anyway, I'm born and raised in Southern California, I'm 16 and have the ego about the size of a squashed grape..( Depending on who I'm with) but most of the time I'm very VERY shy.
So here's the story, I'm currently on a plane with every thing I've ever owned and making a huge move with my dad and 2 brothers to Sydney, Australia to move in with my new stepmom.. Yeah by choice..
Well. It all started when I was about 5 and my little brother Tyde was born and about 2-3 weeks later. Poof my mom was gone nowhere.. But it didn't really phase my she wasn't the really "motherly type" if you ask me kind mean and rude always calling me names but I was five and had no mother. Kinda hard thing to live with but I got over it.. So my brother Tyde is now almost 11 and is basically my best friend. He is my whole world. And I try to be as much of a mom to him as possible cuz.. Well. He's never had one. But I find myself being protective over him a lot. Like really protective but hey who give a shit.
Then there's my older brother Vincent. But we call him Vince. And he I also like my best friend were very close and do almost everything together.. Well when he's home.
See he is in military (and so is my dad but well get to that later.) and sometimes he's gone for a long time but we still love each other. He's 19 and had the cutest baby girl ever and his girlfriend is like the best mom ever.. I'm kinda jealous but yea know. they live back in the U.S. But he's just helping with the move.
And lastly there's my dad.. My knight in shining armor.. My super hero.. My dad is my entire world we have a bond like no other and I could tell him anything. Except the fact that I hate his new wife. Yeah he just got married to a lady he met in Sydney while on the military base over there.. Ughhhh I mean she okay but she really rude and calls me names. She basically hates me and Tyde but I love my dad so u do it for him.. For now
Wow I almost forgot to tell you my story.. Okay well after my mom left which you already know I became very isolated. I fell into a deep desperation that no one could get me out of. Growing up all the girls around me always had great bodies and cute faces.. And then there was me at the age of 13 I could not find a single thing I liked about myself. To the point in which u began to self harm. Then I stopped eating and working out like nonstop. A I grew sick. Like very sick where I was rushed to the hospital and had to have 3 surgeries. I still struggle to eat and I still work out nonstop. And self harm when things get really bad. Which is usually when I think to much about things but the whole depression thing is a lot better i mean I talk to Tyde a lot but he just tells me it's all gonna be okay. Which I probably need the most but don't accept it. So now I just don't let anyone in.. Don't tell them what really happened or how I really feel. I usually just put on that smile. (Yeah you know why smile I'm talking about) and tell everyone.. I'm fine and it's okay. When it's really not
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Jeez.. Wow ummm.. Well tell me if it was good or if you liked it. Idk it's my first time writing one of these so I really didn't know what to put.. Sorry if it sucked. It probably did.😖