From Solace to Soulmates: A Love Story Unfolding

Chapter 3

It's the day I've been waiting for. Ito na yung araw na finally matatapos na din yung pag rereview ko, pero still kinakabahan ako, diko alam kong makakaya ko ba, after all na hindi pa din ako okay.

"Kaya mo yan!" I assured myself.

Ako na lng ang nagpapasaya sa sarili ko, ginagawa ko lahat para maging okay pa din ko despite of all the things that's happening to my life.

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Papunta na kami sa place na kung saan gaganapin yung contest, I seated at the back and there's a lot of contestant compared to last year. My coach may have noticed that I'm very nervous kaya tinawag niya ko to give me the assurance na 'kaya ko to' na kahit hindi ako manalo she's still be proud of me. I just smiled to her so that she can know that I'm fine even if im not.

While waiting to start na contest, nag selpon na muna ko and tried to review yung ibang hindi ko matandaan and then some of my friends even chatted me and said "goodluckk" to mee. O really appreciated all of them. And then a minutes ago, My friend Levi's name pop up while I was reviewing.

@Vincent_kcd: Goodluckk ate!

I immediately replied to him after I received his chat.

@Sofia_cyella: Thank youu!

I was very glad that he remembered it.

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A minutes ago tumigil na ko sa pagseselpon and just focused myself until may kausap sakin from ibang school syempre kasi only one representative from each school. So there's this girl who talked to me, she's from EPAMHS school and since that I kinda feel comfortable since I have someone to talk to.

Until a minutes ago nagsimula na ang contest nmin, I focused myself muched and tried my best to answer all the question, remembering all the late nights that I'm still reviewing, all the pagpapalipas ng pagkain, all of what they're saying about it, all of my past traumas in this. Yet, it's still not worth it.

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Hanggang sa natapos kaming sumagot and checked also our paper, from that moment I did not expect anymore, hanggang sa lumabas na ako ng classroom, my teacher and coach even tried na pumunta sa loob just to see the results, while I'm outside, pumunta sa likod ng classroom. It's very quit here, and maganda ang view, there's a tulip garden, and from that I started crying again and again and keep blaming myself.

Hanggang sa biglang mag vibrate ang phone ko at makita ko na tumatawag pala ang coach ko. So, I tried to be okay, and pretended nothing happened. While I was walking, I suddenly bumped to this girl again, the girl who insisted to talk to me earlier, she said she did it, I'm very happy to her co'z she passed and nailed it while I'm here pretending I'm okay.

"Hey, I did it, kasama ko" she said to me happily.

"Congrats! I know you can do it naman" I replied to her and tried to give him a smile for assurance.

"Thankk youu! Congrats din sayo, kaya mo yan, magaling ka naman" she smiled while saying.

"Oum thank you!" I said to her and smiled.

I know namn that she just wanted to make me feel better but I don't think it's gonna work this time.

Papunta nako sa loob ng classroom kung saan kmi nag take ng quizzes, hanggang sa nakasalubong ko sa kuya frank. Isa din siya sa mga contestant dito, siya ay from grade 9 student.
Binigyan niya ako ng drinks and snacks and also he said something to me.

"Elle ohh! Pinabibigay ng coach mo" He said.

"Ahh sige po, thank you!" I said.

"Congrats pala, you did your best" he said again.

"Ahm thank you po kuya, Congrats din sayo" I gave him a small smile while I said that.

Nang nasa loob na ako ng classroom nakita ko agad sila coach, and I felt that thing inside me again where I keep blaming myself for some reason.

"Saan ka pumunta nak? kanina kapa nmin hinahanap" tanong ng coach ko.

"Ahm diyan lng po sa gilid" I simply replied.

"Ohh sige na tara na, mag lunch na tayo, and also nak, it's okay, you did great and I'm proud of you!" he said to me maybe just to let me know that's it's okay. But it's not.

Nang maklabas kami ng classroom nakita ko na kausap pla ni sir yung parent ni ate trixx n ate ng friend ko. Hindi din siya nakasama pero it feel's like okay lng sakanya.

Paalis na kami ng school kasi kakain kami ng lunch, pumunta kami sa Jollibee pero sobrang tao, pumili sila sir, my former coach and  my coach ngayong sy. Gusto ko na sana umuwi since ayoko na ilibre nanaman nila ako, tapos ako eto ngayon wala man lang naibigy sakanila, hindi ko man lang nakuha or hindi man lang ako nakasama. Pumila na sila sir, and a minute's ago tumunog phone ko, tinignan ko to hnggang sa nakitaang message ni sir sakin, tinatanong niya kung aning gusto kong kainin, I just saidna kahit ano since it's jollibee nmn and ayoko nang mag request pa nang kung ano.

Nang bumalik sila sa table namin, may sinabi sir samin.

"Inayy! Wala pa daw sila kanin, ano hintayin pa natin?" tanong ni sir kay coach.

"Ayy inda, diri na gayod, nag-aalop nading mga igin" sabi ng former coach ko.

Edi umlis na lng kami at umuwi ng baao. Pagkauwi namin ay sinabihn kami ni sir na umuwi na daw since dioa kami kumakain. Sasabay sana sakin pauwi yung former coach ko since malapit bahay niya sa bahay ko. Kaso sinabi ko sa pupuntahan ko pa sila mama sa tindahan kahit naman hindi.

Nang makaalis na sila, pumunta ko ng school pabalik, dahil alam ko nandun pa mga classmates ko and also kukunin ko yung susi sakanila dahil sabi ni ng adviser namin kunin ko daw bago umuwi.

Nang nasa school nako, pumasok ako sa classroom namin at nakita na kakaunti naman sila, pati students and teachers since lahat nga ay nasa contest.

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