Unexpected Love

UL 01

It's two in the afternoon of July 3rd. The first day of classes starts this week. It's a new beginning for me as it is a new school that I'm attending to. Happy ako na bagong simula ito pero hindi ko din alam ang ie-expect ko sa school year na ito.

I let out a sigh before I roamed my eyes in the room. It's kind of busy today. Lots of people are waiting for their turn to be checked on. Some are reading a book or a magazine to pass time. Some are watching or scrolling through their phones. As for me, I'm reading something from kindle. I love to read stories and epistolaries. I just find them fun. I checked the time again then suddenly somebody called my name.

"Louisse Aly Mercado," I looked around and saw the person who called my name. I approached her. "Your next appointment po ma'am ay in 4 weeks. Nasa contact card na po ang date and time," she gave me a contact card.

"Thank you po," binulsa ko na yung card at lumabas na sa lugar na 'yun.

Ang ganda ng araw, sakto kailangan ko 'to. Vitamin D. Pangpa-lift up ng mood at maganda din sa skin. Medyo kailangan kong lakarin 'yung bus stop, medyo may kalayuan kasi. I have to go home before I go to my school to move into one of the dorms there. My home is kind of far from the school so I'd need to live in a dormitory. Hopefully I'll have a nice roommate, an organized one because I don't like it when things are all over the place.

What will happen this school year? Will I have a smooth semesters? Will I be in the DL? Will I have a—here we go again with all of these questions and thoughts that lead to anxiety sometimes. It may lead to fear from trying and welcoming new things in my life. I have to avoid that. I should think positive. Hindi maganda sa utak ko kung magnenegative thinking ako.

Pero hiling ko lang na sana, maging okay na itong school year since bagong simula para saakin. Sana hindi rin stressful kasi bawal akong ma-stress. I let out of a sigh with all of this "hopes" of mine. Isinuot ko na lang ang airpods ko at nakinig sa upbeat songs.

Sumakay na ako sa bus nang makarating ito. Hindi naman gaano kalayo ang bahay namin sa pinanggalingan ko, it's 30 minutes ride with all the stops that the bus is going to take. Good thing, hindi na iikot 'yung bus kaya hindi na ako matatagalan sa biyahe.

When I reached home, I quickly went to my room to prepare all of things I'd like to bring to my future dorm. Inayos ko ang mga damit ko sa maleta. Mamimiss ko din ang bahay na 'to at mga nakatira dito. Never pa ako bumukod kaya isa din sa kinatatakot ko 'yun. Pero I'm somewhat independent kaya less worries—I can do basic household chores. I picked up the books from my shelves and put them in my bag. I need these to entertain myself. I also grabbed my guitar in the corner of my room. I have to bring this with me, just in case I need it for something. I just play it when it's needed. I rarely touch it.

"Ready ka na ba?" Sabi ng taong bigla-biglang pumasok sa kwarto ko ng hindi kumakatok. Something I hate. So by the time I turned around with my furrowed eyebrows, that's the time she knocked on my door. "Oops," sabi niya.

"I'm just finishing up. What's up?" I responded, zipping down my suitcase.

"Ihahatid kita ate," sabi niya tapos saka niya pinaikot-ikot 'yung susi ng sasakyan sa daliri niya. "Hindi na sasama sila Daddy at Mommy."

"That's fine. I'd prefer that anyway," I shrugged then carried my backpack. I picked up the guitar and wore the straps on my left shoulder. "Pinayagan kang ikaw lang magdrive pauwi mag-isa ha Lia?" Bagong pasa lang kasi siya sa drive test kaya kailangan pa rin ng guide paminsan-minsan. Malakas lang loob niya kaya ganyan.