Blade

12-The Instruction

And then, I fell asleep…

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I groaned as I turned over in bed, shutting my eyelids even tighter against the morning light.

Wait a minute… Light?

My eyes flew open. Had I slept in?

“Calm down. Today is a Saturday."

I turned to my side, startled at the sudden speech. Ms Janet sat, all prim and proper in my chair. She gazed at me with sharp brown eyes. I felt myself shrink under the scrutiny.

“Your parents were worried about leaving you alone, so they asked me to watch you," she explained. She continued to give me that stare that made me feel like a condemned criminal under a judge’s gaze.

Ms Janet had always been nice to me, but she was most likely still angry about the incident with mum’s seizure…

Silently, I sat up on the soft and comfortable bed.

“How is mum?" I asked.

She stared at me for a few seconds.

"She's fine.But I think it's best if you don't visit her for now,” she said.

I tried not to show how affected I was by those words. I had hurt mum to the extent that my mere appearance could trigger her seizures?

"I understand,” I replied.

She stared at me like she wanted to offer some comfort, but she simply sighed.

"Your father is out,but he left you breakfast in the microwave.He'll be back by noon, and Xander is in his room.”she rose, turning to leave, then stopped, sighing again.“Your mother said to tell you she loves you very much and that you shouldn't blame yourself for what happened."

My eyes clouded over.

By her tone, I was sure Ms Janet blamed me for what happened.

She stepped out, shutting the door behind her. I bit my lip. This was no time to cry.

Today was a Saturday, which meant ‘bathtub’.

To be honest, this was the only part of my therapy that I actually enjoyed. Ms Sarah had recommended it for me as a soothing technique, prescribing some therapeutic oils as well…

I took a shower before heading for the tub,cleaning it out with a towel.I let the water flow, focusing my senses on the sensation of the rushing water. It was distracting, and that was exactly what I needed.

When the water was warm enough, I plugged the drain, letting the water level rise till I was satisfied, then I added some bath salts and the therapeutic oils.

I slid down into the warm water till my head went under, but try as I might, I could not block out the memories from yesterday night.

Being tied to a pole, Andrew's nail slicing across my face, the metallic box-like room, the whip cracking through the air…

I opened my eyes suddenly in a bid to avoid the images, regretting it immediately as a painful sting shot through them. I motioned to move to the surface…

I tried to push with my legs, but nothing happened. I tried to move my arms, same thing. Panic pumped into me. I couldn't move!

Do you still think our meeting was something you cooked up in your head?

Andrew!

In shock, I parted my lips. Water rushed into my mouth, and it was too late but the time I shut my lips. I struggled with all of my strength, trying to get to the surface.

My lungs were screaming for air.My head was fogging from lack of oxygen.

Somebody help!

What was happening?! Why couldn't I move?! I was going to die!

Tears flowed from my eyes, mixing in with the bath water.

Sure, I had wanted to kill myself only a few hours ago, but I wanted to die on my own terms, not like this…

On your own terms?

Andrew laughed.

You mean just like I had control over how I died?

Everything was burning…

My eyes, my chest… Everything.

Please help! I thought frantically even though no one could hear me. Please…

Fortunately for you,sister, it is not yet time. But do not fool yourself into thinking I am not real , because I am. Even realer than most things. Stay away from Frederick Lawson…

And then I broke the surface.

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*Walks in with a hoodie and a face mask*

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