Alec : What was that?? (he asked pointing at the way Lisa left)
Magnus : what? There is nothing new !! (he said a bit stubbornly).. And I don't have to explain myself to anyone… (he said looking at alec)
Alec :But This time you have to!!! (he said with same anger)
Magnus sighed and looked at Alec '' What do you want me to explain? what are you expecting from me??haan??" he asked directly.
Alec : expecting??? I am expecting a lot and that's my fault.. I know that already … But you didn't dare to look into my eyes for all these days… You behave like I do not even exist in your eyes and you treat me like a maid.. (he gave a pause thinking about it and continued) of course I am.. I am just your chef.. (he said and magnus closed his eyes in frustration)
Magnus :Alec will you please stop??? (he said in anger)
Alec : I can't… because you ignored me for all these days… And now you want to have sex with Lisa when I am breathing under the Same roof.. (he yelled at Magnus, who looked at him in disbelief ).
Magnus : what?? (he took a deep breath) look.. Yes I was drunk on that day.. I don't remember what I did and how I behaved or treated you… it's just a mistake from my side…I shouldn't have come to your place.. What else do you want me to do..?? To mourn all day and Night for stealing your virginity which you saved for the right one ??you want me to drown in guilt by seeing your face again and again sorry I can't do that… I have enough to deal with (he said bit rudely)
Alec : what? It's not a mistake.. You kissed me because you said you wanted to kiss me.. And you didn't steal my virginity, I let you take it… It's me.. There is nothing wrong with it.. We can talk things out.. We can… We Can (he continued to say but magnus knows where it is going so he stopped it by raising his hand up in the air) .
Magnus : there is nothing to talk, alec… if it someone else i would have paid them for that night.. (Alec's nose bulges in anger) I don't dare to do that to you (on hearing that Alec calms down a little) …i won't disturb you again, You can have my words… so let's forget about it and move on
Alec : I can't..(Magnus stared at him without even blinking) I am not a slut to sleep with some drunken moron when I was in (he was about to say "heat" but he knew it would make things even more complicated so he gobbled his words ) magnus… I can't watch you sleeping with someone else.. I don't know why but It hurts (his eyes started to get glassy and his voice went soft)
Magnus swallowed hard On hearing that…this is what he was afraid of.. He is not ready to do any emotional bait kinda role again..
Magnus : this is what I am alec … I Fuck random people.. I don't care about them.. I don't have feelings and I can't give any of the emotions you are expecting from me .. I am selfish… Even sadists just leave me.. (he said and Alec shook his head still staring at him angrily) God!! … (he closed his eyes and shook his head) you aren't a slut that's what is killing me.. I shouldn't have done this to you. Please don't push me Into any more guilt.. It's already too much for me to take… I didn't mean to cross my limits on that day.. I was a drunken monster on that day… you should have killed me instead of let me do that to you (his tone went down to soft and broken) and I am sorry if I treated you badly on that day.
Alec couldn't help himself falling for this asshole more, he didn't wait, he just pulled Magnus for a kiss, he took him by surprise before Magnus wasn't shocked he was in pain that kiss could heal anything on him… But before he could get lost in his lips and bury himself in that dreamland and before he could lose his mind he pulled himself away from alec..Alec stood there helpless.. He can't stop loving him… And he can't say it out.. On hearing Magnus's words he was clear that talking about his feelings will definitely push Magnus away from him..
Chapter 22
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