✔Full Of My Love To You [Taennie Adaption]

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Days ago, I was chatting to my girlfriend about each other's feelings. She is the 'fast love' type. She said that as long as both parties see eye to eye and it isn't disgusting in bed, then it's OK. I said that I couldn't do that, I needed both parties to understand each other, I'll know that the other person's heart is true and also let the other person know that I care about him. We have to consider the possibilities of being together, rationality, each other's families and also think about how the two of us will manage our marriage so that it will be long lasting.

After listening, my friend shook her head and said, "You're too realistic."

Yes, I'm very realistic so my romantic boyfriend would often say that I'm a cold woman, cruel woman, emotionless woman, and then talk about how back then, his teenage heart was broken then broken even more.

I....think about it, and it's true.

I can't remember my first impression of Taehyung, I only know that we met. It's to the extent that I can't work out from primary onward, which year level we were classmates in, which year we parted.

In high school, I chose the humanities stream. He called me outside and dragged me to the back of the school building. He walked around in circles and was annoyed for a long time, "Why are you like this, why are you like this....."

He was good at humanities, I was good at sciences.

He accommodated me by choosing sciences, I didn't believe it and chose humanities, it was really a strange combination of circumstances.

I said, "Taehyung, I'm going up now."He became even more annoyed and glared at me. It was the first time he spoke icily to me,

"Jennie, do you have to be so cold?!"

I watched him turn around and leave, I didn't know how to manage these sorts of things and only felt very apologetic.

I wasn't naturally so ignorant that I couldn't see his obvious interest in me, but back then, we were still young and didn't have so many deep feelings. Even if there was a little impulse, a little ignorance, it was all immature. It's good to experience young love but missing it is also okay. In the future when you think back to it, you'll only gently smile or feel warm, or be as calm as a clear sky.

In high school second year, there once was a large spring outing. It was a rare benefit the school gave to the deeply suffering students and the plan was to go to Wuyuan County in Jiangxi Province. I don't remember how long we sat on the bus for, but after we got off, I was a bit car sick. My classmate held me and said, "Jennie, your complexion is bad, do you want to drink some water?"

I said that I'll be fine after walking and catching some air.

My desk mate was a calm and quiet girl, her personality was a little similar to mine so we got along well. We were at the very back of the group walking on the small country road. I felt that it was a rare relaxation time and a group of boys in the front had already started making a ruckus. After walking for a bit, someone behind me patted my shoulder. I turned around to see that it was Xu Wei Yu, I had forgot that his science class also came along, the arts stream were in the front and his were there back group. He expressionlessly handed over a water bottle, "Drink some water."I froze for a bit and after recovering, I replied, "I don't want to drink." Actually it was because I couldn't drink it down, my chest felt a bit nauseous the whole time.

He frowned, "Your face is as white as a ghost!"

I....

My desk mate felt that the atmosphere wasn't right and worriedly asked me in a small voice, "Jennie, should we walk faster and catch up to the front?"

I was just deciding when the boys from the science class ran over chirping, "Taehyung, no wonder you ran so fast, it turns out you came looking for your girlfriend!"

"Student, Young Master Kim really thinks about you all the time, he was looking at his watch the entire trip over, haha, haha!"

"Brother Kim, you're acting too obvious la! The teacher's nearly here, take it easy!"

The group of boys stopped messing around and ran onward laughing.

Taehyung looked at me and hesitantly said, "Lets walk together?"

My desk mate understood. This time, she had no loyalty and said to me, "I'm going to find so and so" then jogged off. Taehyunglwalked over and held my arm, I said no need, I could walk.

He gnashed his teeth, "Endure then!"

Sigh, I am uncomfortable but being disturbed like this by him made it even worse. I saw that lots of boys and girls from the science stream were coming up so I said, "Lets go."

I felt very uneasy walking in middle. Taehyung once said that I: liked face more than I liked him, Truthfully, I just don't like to become the center of his focus or attract any attention. I've been like this since I was small and personalities like this that have been acquired through many years of habit so you can't say "change it" and it'll easily change. That day, I caught up to the people in my class and when I was about to say goodbye to him, he grabbed me and said, "Jennie, I'm leaving next year."

Taehyung puts in much more feelings than I do, it's always been this way. He's also understood many things before I have. The words he say the most are: you let me wait for so, so long, I nearly thought that I'll get gray hair from waiting before you understand! Then in my next life, I definitely don't want to meet you!"

Third year of high school was the most painful year. The things I remember deepest are everyday unable to wake up, the endless questions, feeling dizzy, unable to differentiate between the start of class and end of class bells. However, like this, the time went by very quickly. In the middle of June*, I realized that it turns out my high school life has already ended.That summer, little brother went overseas with father, mother and I sent him over. It was my first time going abroad and I only felt unfamiliar and not suited to the place. I thought little brother, who was ten that year, would probably be even more scared and helpless, however he help my hand and smiled to me, "Sister, I'm overseas la, he he, later I'll buy pretty clothes to bring back for sis!"

I say okay.

When I went back to China, my neighbor called me over, he said, "Jennie, you and your mother weren't home during this period?"

I said yes, we went out.

He said, "there was a boy, he came everyday in the previous two weeks to wait for you. I saw that he waited from morning to night so I said that you might have gone out, no one's home during summer break. Sigh, now that you're back, what about giving him a phone call, do you know who he is?"

I said that I know.

Taehyung also went overseas, in this decade, going abroad was as easy and common as eating KFC.

In university, I made a group of very good friends. Their personalities were either open, brazen or graceful. They all say that university is love's temple so in the second semester of the first year, my good friends around me all got a boyfriend at godspeed. Thus, I, this loner, was often looked down on and preached on. All up to one day when the head of dorm mysteriously handed the phone to me, saying "Jennie, it's for you, a man."