Beauty. That's the standard you grew up with. Lahat ng nakikita mo sa social media only talks about beauty that you ended up believing that's all there is to life. Beauty. Perfect body. Kahit pa ang sarili mong magulang ang nagsasabi na sayong hindi...
"I don't know. I don't understand. Ambilis niya kong bitawan just because she saw me being kissed kahit si ko naman ginusto yung nangyari. She doesn't even listen to my explanation. She just wants me to stop. I... I've been trying my best to prove that I love her... hindi ko masabi agad oo pero that's my point courting her. I love her. Why else would I... want to spend time with her? Fck it"
"Maybe she's scared?"
"Of what? Why? Haven't I done anything to at least show her na siya lang yung gusto ko?"
"You guys need to talk bro"
"Ewan. Bahala na"
Leila's PoV
After he sent me his last messages, hindi na talaga lumapit o nagpakita si Allan and feel awful about it. It went by for weeks... pero wala akong lakas na lumapit o makipagusap kahit sa totoo lang... sa totoo lang miss na miss ko na siya.
"Ate choco—" sambit ko sa canteen
"Chocolate cake ate isa"
"A-allan..." pagtawag ko pero nilampasan niya lang ako.
"So he's over you now? I wouldn't be surprised. I mean sa pangit mong yan di ba?" Alexa said making me mad na nailagay ko sa mukha niya yung cake na hawak ko
"Hey!"
"Alam mo isa sa pinagsisisihan ko ngayon? Hinayaan ko sarili kong maapektuhan sayo."
"How dare you?!"
"Sige! Sampalin mo na ko! Para makita ng lahat na mas panget ugali mo kesa sa mukha ko!" Sigaw ko then she walked out. Hindi ko na namalayan sa sarili kong umiiyak na pala ako so I ran and went out of school to go home. Nasa waiting shed pa lang ako bumuhos na lalo luha ko"
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Ang tanga ko. Alam ko naman eh. It was all Alexa. Pero nagpalamon ako sa overthinking na... na di ko kaya pag mas malala pa dun ginawa niya. When in fact... I love Allan. I trust and believe him... but I still got scared... now I don't even know how to approach him and say sorry.
"Anak, andyan ka na pala— oy si Mr. Chocolate!" Dad said pagdating ko sa bahay na kinagulat ko. I wasn't sure how I was able to go home pero mas hindi ako sure pano... kelan pa siya andito?
"Tito, hi. Pwede ko po bang kausapin si... si Leila?"
"Okay. Dito kayo sa loob" sambit ni dad but I was just staring at him like an idiot
"Lead the way" sambit niya kaya pumasok na ko. I sat down and he did as well
"Juice oh" dad before he left us alone
"Thank you tito"
"Leila?" Sa pagtawag niya pa lang sa pangalan ko naiyak na ko ulit
"H-hey..."
"Sorry... I'm sorry... I didn't mean it. I didn't mean everything I said... sorry..." sambit ko covering my face then I felt him sit beside me
"So you believe me when I say I didn't want what happened?" Sambit niya that I nodded still covering my face
"I... I was just... insecure. Scared. Scared that I... I wouldn't be able to... to fight for you in the future... kung dun pa lang... nasasaktan na ko. Alam ko namang di mo ginusto yun pero natakot pa rin ako... sorry..."
"So you weren't assured that I would never do that to you?"
"No... but Alexa..." sambit ko hearing him sigh
"Gusto mo ba talaga ko tumigil? Tatanungin kita ulit ngayon"
I immediately said no. Kasi yun naman yung totoo but not hearing him say anything afterwards.
"N-napagod ka na ba?"
"Kung sabihin kong oo?"
I closed my eyes and stood up
"Tatanggapin ko. Kasalanan ko naman eh... again... sorry. Also..." I gathered all the courage I have to at least admit to him what I feel
"I see you and I... I was happy with you the whole time. I... I love you" sambit ko before running to my room and cry my heart out
