The Invisible String

chapter 16. What if ?

"What if I never wanted this change?" I said as I wanted to know his answer now.

"You don't want it, don't worry. Change needs you!"

"What?" I ask perplexed.

"You are willing to do this! Mark my words." He says with confidence that Now I doubt myself.

Is it that obvious? I don't see it!

You are willing to do this.......

Anvi said same words to me about the guy from the book. What is it that everyone sees and I can't?

I don't know, you know somtimes we couldn't understand our actions and thoughts until we get some certain proof to prove that and make us believe to ourselves first, but deep down we know, we wanted it to happen, we didn't stopped it from happening it, we are happy that it happened. But won't admit not in front of the world But also we won't admit to ourselves

I shook my head at her thoughts which ringed in my ears. My sister is blabbering mess nothing eles.

"Maybe I should bring some juice. Give me your glass" I said, getting up dodging the topic and going inside to get more juice.

"Avoiding the topic won't change the fact!" He said stretching from the balcony and I shook my head.

"Where Is mummy?" I asked as I took my seat after getting the juices.

"Talking With your fiancée" he said, taking The glass from my hand.

We were drinking the juice until this time I broke the silence "Papa?"

"Ha?"

"Do you think Lavanya knows Ab-about my Past?"

"No. She doesn't but I will insist You to tell her as soon as possible. She has the right to know about that incident." he said with a seriousness in his tone.

The stammerings in my conversation is a damn fact of how much this topic hurts Me and makes me numb to even think about anything else. I can face everything but this topic makes me weak in a way in which my confidence falls and buries itself beneath My fears, anxiety, anger, helplessness and Pain.

People don't really talk to me as they've seen my anger Version and for which I am thankful for because too because many people + too many conversations = My past and if not past then more expectations.

My Past has been a delightful subject for each and every creature who don't knows me except My family. From media to social media to relatives no one has ever left me to make me feel pathetic about my existence as being a Mehrotra.

Now at this point of my life, I don't give a damn about who says what behind in My back, which happens I can see it, but telling Lavanya about My past is something I know I cannot do. In Fear of many things I might end up ruining what somehow my parents tried to fix for me.

And that girl, whose trying!. Vanya.

"Do-do you think she will listen to me, if I ever be able to tell her?" I couldn't hold back myself.

"Why do you think she will not?" He said

"Because Sakshi didn't and left with-"

"Don't bring that girl's name in front of me! And don't compare my daughter to a evil" He said sternly this time.

I shook My head " I am not comparing Lavanya, I just....can't trust her"

"I can understand but you need to understand Everyone is not her, specially Lavanya!" He explained