Beautifully Unfinished

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CHAPTER 3

"Nervous?" I asked Ben with a smile.

"I am." Ben nervously smiles back but with eagerness in his eyes.

"You'll be doing great on your first day baby. You always do."

When we arrive at his school, I held his hand tight as we walk together to the building. I can tell he was nervous but he was trying his best not to freak out. I walk him to his classroom and to be honest, I feel like I was much more nervous than Ben when we reached his school. I know how it goes in schools and there are always going to be bullies which is one of the reasons why I am scared about. Ben's a very nice kid and he's too good that I am scared other kids will bully him because he doesn't have a father.

I squat down before him as I push his curly hair off from his forehead. He smiles at me sweetly and kisses my cheek then hugs me.

"Thank you for driving me to school for my first day mommy." He says too adorably that it's warming my heart.

I kissed his temple and pulled myself away from him as I smile back trying to hide that I am nervous for hi,, "Not a problem baby."

"Will you pick me up after school mom?"

I nod. "Of course sweetheart. Enjoy your first day alright? I love you."

He smiled happily, "I love you too mommy."

"Follow what your teacher tells you, okay?"

Ben nods.

"Be a good boy!" I added.

I stand and watch him as he walks towards his classroom. I am already proud of him even at that age. I tried to tell myself that there were other kids his age so he would probably meet new friends. He always blends in any group of people and always excels in his grades.

Ben is shy at first but I'm sure he'll get along with his classmates the more he spends time with them. Ben is a very patient and cool-headed kid. I taught him about staying grounded and I always taught him to be nice even if to those kids who's not nice to him. I marched my way back to my car and drove to the hospital.

I'm not a registered nurse which is something that I am so proud about myself.

When I was pregnant with Ben and studying in a medical school at the same time, it was the hardest thing I've ever been to. Juggling things all at once was something totally worth thriving for. There were days when I had to control myself from throwing up in the middle of the class or when I am engrossed by the cadavers for our gross anatomy. It was hard. It was terribly and awfully hard for me.

But I know I had to be strong for myself and for my baby that's why I passed all through those trials in my life, all on my own.

I didn't care anymore of what the people were saying about me and against me and who I was. All I cared about was to finish my studies and that was it. I had to face everyone with chin up even though my baby had no father. It was a big issue when I was in college and everyone had bad things to say against me. I couldn't tell people who my baby daddy is. No one would believe me if I tell them.

Also, it would be too risky for me.

If I were in their shoes, I'd do the same thing. I wouldn't believe me either if I say Harry Styles from One Direction got me pregnant.

Come on, it's Harry . The name itself is already too precious and too highly respected. People will only think I was doing it for fame.

There were people asking me a lot of things which I also asked myself before that I still hear in my head such as, did I ever regret conceiving this child? Nope. I love Ben.