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And again the freckled boy's
fiancé was convinced that they'd
welcome another two girls into
their life in a few months.

“Good luck, bro. Twice the cries,
twice the poop, twice the.. Money.
No thanks.”

Jisung snorted before he took
a sip of his iced americano.

He was glad that his son was old
enough to use the potty by himself
now and he was also extremely
happy to have his bedroom to
himself and his husband again.

No more diapers, most nights a full
night's sleep and they had their bed
to themselves again..

If you know what I mean.

“It's all part of a wonderful
journey, Ji.”

“A poopy journey.”

And while the two mommies
bickered, Seungmin only
watched them quietly.

Even after three years he still
couldn't confidently and truthfully
say that he was ready to have a
child with Hyunjin.

It wasn't that he had doubts
about their relationship.

He knew that Hyunjin was the
man he'd want to spend the
rest of his life with.

But the longer he listened to his
friends and watched them go through
their pregnancies plus giving birth,
the better he knew that this was
nothing he wanted to experience.

The nausea, the months of all kinds
of pains, the changes of his body.

He already wasn't that confident
of his body and it had been hard
to see Jisung struggle.

Not everyone embraced motherhood
as well as Felix and Seungmin was
truly scared of not being able to
recover the way Jisung did.

What if he didn't forget about
all the traumatic events the moment
he held his child in his arms
for the first time?

What if he just couldn't love
his child after going through
hell to have them?

And he wasn't sure if he was
ready to give up the life he had now
to take care of a little human.

“Minnie.”

“Huh?”

“You're spacing out.”

“Sorry guys, I can't really join
your talk about kids.”

“Well, you could.”

Felix replied with a teasing smirk
but it only needed one gentle kick
against his leg from Jisung to remind
him that not everyone felt so purely
happy about having kids.

Jisung knew that face his puppy-like
friend was making too well.

That forced smile, full
of uncomfortableness and
embarrassment but his eyes
were filled with exhaustion.

Exhaustion from hearing about
this topic and always finding excuses.

“So.. Hyunjin told Minho you're
thinking about moving again?”