Rachel
It's been about two months since Mika allowed me to do whatever I want. We've quite actually had few progress dahil sinamahan niya ako mag grocery last weekend, actually the first time.
It's Friday night and I made sure to get out at exactly 5pm. I wanted to cook dinner. I tried doing it last time and she didn't reject my impromptu dinner date.
There was once a dinner she agreed to, pero nawalan siya ng gana before going out. I had reservations, I was already waiting for her sa restau but then, her health comes first. May it be physically or mentally. I told her I haven't left my condo and that it's okay para hindi naman siya maguilty.
She's one easy to guilt-trip. Kaya nga noon when her friends are crossing the line, ako na ang sumasalo sa pagdadahilan niya. Ayoko maguilty siya when she's not really feeling okay.
Hindi na siya nagreply nun, I let her rest as well at naghintay nalang na yayain niya ako ulit dahil na din baka nagsasawa na siya sa mukha ko. Tho hindi rin ako nakatiis dahil after one week, I asked her if I could come over.
She said yes, with reservations.
Tawang tawa ako paminsan sa kagaguhan ni Mika. But I really missed it. How we were before, which I know hindi na din talaga namin maibabalik.
There's that damaged wall kumbaga, at kahit anong pintura doon ay lalabas at lalabas ang crack.
Okay naman na ako kahit hindi ko siya mahawakan, although it drives me crazy because one of my love language is physical touch. Buti nalang din I follow it up with acts of service kaya nahihirapan man, as long I could see her enjoy eating the food I cooked ay okay na rin ako. Specially with the smile and belly rub she does after eating to her heart's content.
I'm not always pushy, I care to ask if it's okay. Alam ko Mika has a hard time saying no, but I'm happy na hindi niya pinipilit pakisamahan ako. If she really isn't feeling well, or in the mood to talk or see me ay sinasabi naman niya and I respect that.
Nang makarating naman ako sa reception ng kanilang building ay sinabihan ako na may package for Mika kaya kinuha ko na iyon para iakyat. It's just a simple box, katamtaman ang laki. And there's a name.
Vien Da Silva
I'm curious kung sino siya but I let it go for now since gusto ko ipagluto si Mika ng favorite niyang sinigang. I have a hunch, pero I don't really have the right to ask her.
Mika came home by 6:30.
"Welcome home" bati ko
"Hi" Naupo siya sa couch at nag tanggal ng sapatos.
"Someone named Vien sent you a package." Sabi ko kay Mika and put the package in front of her.
My curiosity resurfaced. I'm dying to know who she is. Nagpabalik balik ng ilang ulit ang mata ni Mika sa package at sa akin.
"I cooked dinner, luto na siya if gusto mo kumain"
Binabawi ko na.
I actually didn't want to hear anything anymore even though I was curious. The look she gave me, I certainly know there's something between them. I clenched my teeth because of seething jealousy. I had to remind myself, I have feelings for Mika but that doesn't mean I had rights.
"Hindi ka magtatanong?"
"Hindi ko alam if I should ask you. I'm afraid my heart would hurt sa maririnig ko."
