Happily Married To An Asshole

Chapter 17: Aren't I worth the happiness.

My face flushed a thousand times more as I saw him leaning against the door.

I thought he left already.

"How long have you been standing there, don't you know it bad to eavesdrop on people's personal conversation ." I asked trying to cover up my embarrassment by glaring at him.

"Don't you know how to reduced the volume of your phone." He restores back.

"I didn't know it was that loud." I tried to defend myself still glaring at him

"And how is that my fault" he stared at me and smirked.

"You could have left to give me privacy, but no you didnt."

He didn't answer he just continue staring at me the smirk not leaving his face

Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggghhhh

Ground just swallow me. i can't believe he heard everything EVERYTHING.

Saving myself and decide to just leave.

But even before i could get pass him, he held my wrist.

"Wait, we need to talk. " I jerk my hands off cuz of the sudden tingling I felt in my stomach

"Huh...me." I was very confused.

"No I was talking to the tables and chairs." He said, his voice dripping with sarcasm.

Oh my gosh what does he want to talk about. does he want to talk about what he heard or our weeding night, I don't want to sleep with him........................... not yet.

"We need to talk about this marriage."
               

                What about the marriage

"We are already on it there's nothing we can do" I said trying not to sound nervous about it.

"Look I don't know why my parent were so hellbent on me marrying you but now it done and there is nothing i can do to change that even of I badly wanted to."

I know the reason and I feel bad for someone else's life being affect just to save mine. But he's making me feel .........guilty

"My apologies for being forced to marry someone like me but if it makes you feel better i'm also not delighted to be here." I said trying to maintain a straight face.

"Apology accepted."

Ouch

"But that not the point here ...if you ever feel suffocated here and you feel you can't take it anymore just let me know. The easier the better we would file for a divorce and we'll just tell our paren it didn't work out."

I was about to say something but he cut me off

"But aslong as you stay married to me NOBODY I repeat nobody must find out about this marraige I have a reputation to maintain and I cannot start explaining why i got married or start acting lovey-dovey I front of the press. " He said talking as if he's talking to one of his employee.

" I very much get it you don't have to wor-"

"One more thing don't meddle with my business, what I eat, what I do, when I arrive, is non of your business. I don't need another mom. " He said in a calm voice this time

"As I was saying before you don't have to worry as long as you don't try to control my life." I walked away from him feeling annoyed and at the same time numb of emotions

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I stare at my dry face in the mirror. I should probably be crying but no tears is willing to come down. I feel worthless right now but when do I not. I thought it'll stop seriously I thought I would stop feeling like this. I stare at my hollow brown orbs filled with nothing but sadness my chest hurt and i badly want to cry but it like I ran out of tears a long time ago

Very long time ago

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"Aunt, aunt please stop it hurting me." I cried and cried but she only pulled harder, hatred filled her eyes.

"Shut it, you're only making me more angry girl"

"Mum please it was a mistake" i said crying, trying to ease her hold from dragging my skull out.

"I SAID SHUT IT" I felt my head hit the island in the kitchen I felt my eye role inside my head as I scream at the effect

"Who are you calling mum-"

-a slap landed on my face my hair still being pulled I can feel the redness of my face as I cried and scream for help.-

"You dumbo how many times did I tell you not to call me that, you want me to die like the rest of you mother right, you witch!!" My head got hit on the wall again which was accompanied by continuous slaps

She leaves my hair and push me. my head hit ground for a moment I stopped breathing at that moment the only thing I heard was

Piiìiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

my head was hurting and my tears intensify
She left me on the floor there not bothering if i died or not. my headache only grew more as my tears didn't stop.

Mum please come back i don't want to live any more take me with you.

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But you know what hurt more than physical pain not being able to cry my chest hurt i want to cry I want to scream but .............nothing

Am I not worth it
My happiness doesn't ever seen to last long

Aren't I worth the happiness.

I moved out of the bathroom changed from my towel to something comfortable to sleep in

I layed in my bed staring at the ceiling Tommorow is a new day and I will make the best of it. I did not leave one hellhole to come to another, I will not let that asshole ruin what I've planned.

And I plan to make the best of it and find happiness in myself.

I feel down anyways welcome back.

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