I know I should be walking in a haze,
With an unfocused gaze,
Thinking to myself that the sadness,
It is just a faze.
But I haven't seemed to reach that stage,
I haven't read that page.
Does this mean it all meant nothing,
That our connection wasn't real?
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking.
The sweetest words that,
Were ever spoken to me,
The countless times and ways,
That you said you loved me,
Were any of those words true,
Or were they part of your spell,
You used to bewitch me?
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking.
Had you truly set me free from my cage,
And make my reality so much better,
Or was it all an illusion,
Making my reality so much worse?
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking
I thought you saved me from my cage,
But I was sorely mistaken,
You made me believe your fairytale,
But then it had to end,
And reality set in,
I realized it wasn't a fairytale,
But it's a horror story.
Was it a horror story to begin with,
Or was it a fairytale that turned into a horror story?
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking.
There are too many promises you made,
But they all made me feel the same,
They filled me with hopes that I never had,
And I will never have again,
These promises meant the world to me,
But they seem to mean nothing to you,
Did all these promises mean something,
Or were they just words,
That held no meaning for you?
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking.
I feel that I will never be okay again,
I can't remember a time when,
I felt this much pain,
However, you don't seem to share this pain,
You're doing just fine,
Without any sleepless nights,
I wish I could feel this way, too,
But I can't seem to feel like you do.
I can't seem to tell how you truly feel,
Are you truly fine,
Or is it all a lie?
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking.
You said the miles didn't matter,
We would always be together,
But that was another one of your lies.
You claim to have done this for my sake,
But this was your mistake,
That only brought my heartache,
Why couldn't you see,
That what I want is you,
No matter how far apart we are.
Did the miles truly matter to you,
Or were you making up excuses to leave?
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking.
I thought if I didn't pay heed to my insecurities,
Then the pain will go away,
But I need to listen to these insecurities,
Even though you aren't my prince charming,
Even though this dream turned into a nightmare,
Even though our shared life is,
No longer in sight,
This heartbreak will not be my demise,
I will be reborn like a phoenix,
And rise to the skies.
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking.
Nothing of what you now feel matters,
Nor what you felt before,
All that matters is what I truly feel,
And what I had truly felt,
Maybe these aren't insecurities at all,
Maybe these are the truths that I couldn't see,
I don't know if I'll ever be able to tell,
Please pay me no heed,
My insecurities are talking.
This heartbreak has taught me many things,
It has taught me what I want,
And who I genuinely want to be,
While I'm sorry it ended,
I will never forget the lessons I learned,
I will now pay heed,
To my talking insecurities.
