𝓛𝓘𝓕𝓔 𝓤𝓟𝓓𝓐𝓣𝓔𝓢

Last words🙂

15th November 2023, 

In 2020, Bhai dooj fell on this date i.e. 15th of Nov. My dad was already admitted in the hospital being Covid positive. I don't remember if I've shared this incident with y'll but I just wanted to share what I'm feeling rn with people who are genuinely with me..

Me & my brother was sleeping, and my mom was trying to wake us up. I was half awake but was still in the blanket, suddenly the phone rang, and it was of my dad from the hospital. She asked about his health and then the most wrenching conversation took place. 

Mom - Dekhlo apne bacho ko, uthh nahi rahe dono. Aap hi uthao inhe!

Saying so, my mom passed the phone to me and instead of saying something to wake me up. He stated something which pinches in my heart everytime I remember him.

Papa - Beta dekh, ladiyo mat kisi se!

I think my dad said this being aware of how my blood boils and BP starts rising even at small happenings. Dekho, genetic hai so can't do anything of it! Hihi..*me chuckling with tears*

**I'm literally writing this with a very heart and eyes ready to tear up**

I couldn't understand what my dad said because of the nebulizer, which was attached all the time to his mouth, so I gave the phone to my mom. 

Mom - Kya keh rahe ho aap? Samajh nahi aa raha ise..

Papa - Isse kahiyo, ladayi na kare kisi se!

Mom - Ye kyu ladegi kisi se? Haan lekin aapse zaroor ladegi, jab aa jaoge!

We all took those words randomly but never knew that this is one life lesson which he wanted me to apply in my life. But little did he know, unke bhai aise hain ki..hhh..aise hain ki aapki beti ka ek din gusse se heart fail karvayenge. 

Since the last two days, we were at my best Chachu's place who's actually my dad's school bestfriend and they've lived each and every moment of their life together. School, college, internship, living as tenants..everything! Bus fir jab dono ki families badh gayi to alag-alag rehne lage but before my Chachu's son's birth, we (me, mom, dad & chachu) used to live together only. 

Aaj subah ek aisa sapna aaya meri mom ko ki..bus...aansu nahi bahe ab tak ye bahot badi baat hai! She didn't told me this but this morning, when she was telling this to my chachu, I heard it and...😭😭😭

(Conversation ke form mein bataungi)

Mom - Hello, kaun?

Papa - Pehchana nahi tune mujhe?

Mom - Nahi, pehchan to liya lekin aap to..aap to chale gaye thhe na?

Papa - Kahi nahi gaya main! Yahi hu tumhare paas!

Mom - Nahi, maine khud dekha tha aapko (dead body😭).

Papa - Arre woh to hospital walo ne aise hi dikha diya tha. Meri body mein na bahot smell ho gayi thi to mujhe family ke saath rehne se mana kardiya tha. Lekin hoon main tumhare paas hi! Sab dekh raha hoon main tumhe! Kahi nahi gaya main!

And when she was describing it, my mom & chachu were really crying and I'm also trying to control my tears while I'm writing this. 

Kuchh logo ke liye ye zyada badi baat nahi hogi but honestly, he's the most special and loved person I've ever had!🥺💖Unke jaane ke baad Diwali bilkul Diwali nahi lag rahi. Vo to achha hua hum kuchh dino ke liye chachu ke ghar chale gaye thhe varna tyoharon ke dino mein pakka ro rahe hote!😢

18th November is soon to come, and I'm just worried how I'm gonna console my crying mom & bleeding heart💔😭

Ps - This isn't the Diwali gift..ofc!🥲

Byeeee

Signing off!

Vidddsss