Epilogue next. Thank you po!
That night, we owned each other again. I did my best to be gentle, and took my time owning her and letting her feel what I have for her to offer, my soul, love and my life. She owned all of it.
I've felt like I've reached a new moment in my life. It was simply majestic and unforgettable. At sa kanya lang ako makakaramdam ng ganito.
I wasn't able to sleep well after, fearing that everything that happened wasn't real. But looking at her now, in our bed, tired and sleeping made me feel at least secure. She is with me and everything that happened is not just mere imagination.
I made her wear my white shirt as I snuggled her in our bed after what happened between us.
I caressed her cheeks and tightened my hold on her waist. She is with me. And everything is indeed real.
Huminga ako ng malalim. I hugged her gently and kissed her hair. Her smell alone is my reminder that I am home. She is my home and I've felt sort of security about it. And suddenly, I could feel my insides feeling at peace. At last, I felt myself drifting to sleep.
I woke up first. She was still in deep slumber and I couldn't help but smile. I stood up from bed and carefully rummaged through my cabinet. Napangiti ako ng mahanap ko ang kinakailangan ko.
I slowly sat on the bed and opened the small box that I've got. Hinawakan ko ng marahan ang kanyang mga kamay at unti-unting isinuot ito sa kanyang daliri. My hands were even slightly shaking, she is still in deep sleep but I still need to be careful.
My breath was taken away as soon as I saw it fit perfectly on her ring finger.
I wasn't able to move, as my eyes settled on it. It was a huge diamond ring in a gold ring band, and it suits her perfectly.
Muli kong naramdaman ang mas malakas na tibok ng puso ko sa nakita.
My vision went to her face and a smile automatically appeared on my lips.
She is mine now. She will marry and she has no option.
I cooked our breakfasts after and since it is too early in the morning, I also took my time cleaning the house even if it's just a little bit. Nang makuntento na ako at saka ako muling bumalik sa kwarto.
The sun is already up but she might still be sleeping. She was exhausted and...well...it is my fault but...we're gonna get married so…
I opened the door softly and peeked inside and she was already up. But she was crying.
"What's wrong?" I looked at her worriedly and held her waist sideways.
Her cheeks were puffy and red and so were her eyes. Did I hurt her too much? And maybe I wasn't gentle enough?
She slowly lifted her fingers where her ring was and automatically, my worried face turned amused in an instant.
I kissed her head and inhaled her scent. "Do you like it?"
I softly kissed her crimson red cheeks. She then looked at me, confused and lost in her own thoughts.
"Para saan to?" She sobbed a little bit.
I chuckled at her question as I continued giving her butterfly kisses.
Huminga ako ng malalim at napangiti. "I would like to marry you and love for the rest of my life, or even after life, if there is." I lovingly and gently whispered to her.
My heartbeats started racing again.
She removed her hold on me and faced me fully instead. The ways he bit her lips...trying to surpass her sobs, her unruly hair, her white shirt and her morning voice...everything just seems so perfect.
This is our right moment.
"Then what's the question?" She unsurely asked and I can't help but chuckle again.
There is no backing down here. I will work even harder for her and for our family. I will promise their security and provide them with everything more than what they deserve. I'll take care of her and our children, and as long as I am here, no one can touch or hurt them in any way.
"Will you marry me?...but I won't back down even if you say no right now. I'll forever chase you, Sevie. I have learned my lesson the hard way. So, no matter what time it is, what situation you are in, panghabang buhay na kitang mamahalin."
I thought I won't be nervous and anxious when this moment comes. But here I am. My insides are in panic as I utter those words and as she looks at me tearily. The confidence that I have built is easily crumbled. As simple as that.
But she tiptoed and kissed me fully on the lips, all my thoughts again were lost as I encircled my arms on her waist. The fear, the anxiety were all suddenly gone and all that remains is my heart beating for her louder than anything else.
She is for me.
"Then let's get married." She softly whispered in my lips.
I thought I was ready to hear it from her...but the moment she uttered the words my mind went blank and my body automatically moved to hug her tightly. She quickly hugged me back too and felt her tears streaming.
"I'll love you for life, Sevie. Forever." I uttered emotionally and sweetly kissed her on the lips.
At last, the moment that I have been waiting and dreaming for is finally happening and no one can stop us now.
To feel this so much joy and contentment is too much for some like me. I felt like I don't deserve it but at the same time, I know deep inside that this is for me and I can't imagine myself not feeling this moment. Ipagpipilitan ko pa rin.
The kids and her love and all of it, I don't deserve it but I will push myself to deserve those. Dahil gusto ko ako lang ang may karapatan at wala ng iba. This might be selfishness on my part...but I don't fucking care now. No one deserves her love and the kids but me.
"Are you sure you are fine?
Hindi ko mapigilan na mag alala. She's working in the garden while I tailed her. Hindi na ako pumasok sa trabaho at mamamalagi na lang ako sa bahay maghapon. She is quite sick from what happened between us and I just can't leave her here alone.
I grabbed her waist gently.
"I said I am fine. This is normal, Sandro." No, she won't convince me.
I looked at her neck and her arms and saw red markings. Napahinga ako ng malalim, I am sure red markings are all over her body after happened between us.
Was I too rough? I think I was gentle though.
"What should I do to lessen the pain? And how about those red markings?" Hindi ko pa rin mapigilan na mag alala.
She shook her head. "Just like what I've said, this is normal. You are just too big...and…"
She paused and her cheeks reddened again. And instead of continuing her statements, she started watering the plants again, avoiding her own topic.
I smirked. I won't let it go, of course. "You'll be able to accommodate me again for sure. We are a perfect fit for each other." I sensually whispered in her ear.
She became redder with my bold statements. It is fun to tease her sometimes.
"And I could pleasure you in multiple ways...and multiple times too." I whispered like a devil, praying for his next victim.
"Sandro!" She called me out and I couldn't help but chuckle instead.
There is no more satisfying than seeing her this way. And to think that I am the only man who could do this to her was too much for me to take. Hirap pa rin ako maniwala na tototoo na lahat ng nangyayari ngayon sa buhay ko.
I neve thought that I would be dreaming bigger than what I have planned. Meeting her basically changed my whole perception, and I will never be able to see life this way again if it's not because of her.
She made my life meaningful.
I hugged her tighter as she looked at me, embarrassed with my words, but eventually let out a sigh, surrending her weight to me.
But most importantly, she made me realize that I am capable of loving a person this much. At sa kanya lang ako magiging ganito.
