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Chapter 57: lies and cries

"You have to think of them as an object rather than a person." He says as he looks over at the deer eating grass, throwing a sharp object at it, puncturing its eye as it ran away in a zigzag pattern.

"What the fuck?!" I say in horror about to walk away but he lighly grabbed my wrist.

"Calm down, if you want to we can follow it so I can put it out of its misery" he says looking for where the deer went.

"No i don't want to- I don't want to be a murderer to humans or animals." I say pulling my wrist away and walking away off to take a nap.

And of course Mattheo followed me but I just told him I was tired and locked him out of my room.

I fell asleep but in going to lie it really wasn't easy. I couldn't clear my mind wondering why so much has changed so quickly.

*Few days later (3 weeks later Friday in the Astromamy tower a/n: Ik im lazy but I have school now and I'm trying to focus on that so.. I expect you guys do too and wont have as much time to read so it sort of works out.)*

"Yeah but your sort of an asshole for that" Mattheo says.

"I am not! I didn't know what to say to her so I didn't say anything!" I laugh.

"Okay but if Gabrielle wants you to visit then it would probably upset her if she never gets a letter back." He laughs.

" Okay well what am I supposed to say 'dear Gabrielle, I received your letter a week ago and I have taken deep thought and decided i don't want to visit you because you take too much energy to entertain, it's not me, its you.'" I mock.

"Well if you dont write a letter at all it sort of seems like you dont even have any time for her." Mattheo says smartly.

"Alright fine, then what should I say?" I say looking away from his shimmering eyes to the bright stars.

"Tell her you already have plans for the summer."

"But I dont"

"Yes You do, alright, get a pen and paper and write this down alright?" He says nodding towards a quill and journal someone left. I nod tiredly,"okay, 'dear my sweet Gabrielle-' uhm... you didn't even write 'my sweet'"

"Yeah, yeah, just keep going."

"'Although I'd love to bless you with my presents, alas I have plans with my amazing boyfriend Mattheo Riddle this summer at the Riddle house-'"

"What- Mattheo we arent dating. I told you this at least 17 times." I roll my eyes scratching that part.

"Well then will you be my girlfriend?" He asks me.

"Yes of cour-" I say before thinking about it."no"

"No?" He asks confused.

"No... I can't date you again. Its never lasted longer than a year has it?" I say.

"Yeah but none of it was ever because we fought or fell out of love..."

"Yeah but... im dying in a year or so and theres just so much going on but i really do like you... but the timing is just never in our favor is it?"

"Yeah... because it doesn't matter what I want. It's always been what you find convinent for you." He says as he stands up leaving.

I did understamd where he was coming from but its my life. If I don't want to date him, why shall I have to?

But I don't care anyways, I think I did the right thing didnt I? Relationships brings stress and arguments.

I stay there the rest of the night until I get up in leave because I've wemt up there for the past few noghts and my back fucking hurts.