sentir ° jaesahi

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It was later, that Asahi took his seat in the library. Since Jaehyuk left him content, that was his constant mood throughout the day. Like it was nice to feel and understand emotions he wasn't used to feeling or showing.

Jaehyuk showed up soon enough, "Come on, follow me."

Asahi stood up from the seat he took following him to the back of the library. The books in the back were a bit dusty as well and one of the lights went out so the back was dimmer than the rest of the library.

Where are we going?

The question on Asahi's mind made Jaehyuk smile, he was able to feel the curiosity. Jaehyuk came to a back door and pushed it open, Asahi walked through to a beautifully quiet spot. Surrounded by the tall hedges with roses and a stone bench in the middle.

"Wow, where did you find this place?"

Jaehyuk shrugged, "I used to volunteer here part-time and this is our break spot but, no one really used it."

Asahi nodded, it was a cute little area, and to think this would be their spot gave him butterflies. It was a nauseating feeling but, it felt good.

"Feeling okay?"

Asahi nodded, "I think so."

Jaehyuk looked at Asahi and smiled, "Come here."

Asahi put his bag down by Jaehyuks's before standing before him, "what?"

He put his hands out, "We are going over happiness today, hold my hands."

Asahi glanced at his slender dainty hands before slipping his hands into the others, "happiness."

Jaehyuk glanced up at his face before looking around, "there are many types of words that can describe happiness and they each are different extents of that feeling."

"Uh, okay?"

"So first would be pride, pride can be viewed as bad but it's an unselfish type of happiness that you can feel yourself or towards others. Normally people feel pride when they achieve a goal of theirs like a good grade on a test."

Asahi nodded feeling the rush of the emotion throughout his body, he had closed his eyes. Clips of his life played behind his eyelids one of his family and friends when they were proud. Asahi understood it and it gave color to his perspective of life.

Asahi opened his eyes, "what else is there?"

"Excitement, which is the happiness of looking forward to something. Joy is momentary happiness like a warm feeling, kind of how I feel when I come here. Humor is short happiness but the easiest, this is what causes us laughter and makes us feel better."

Asahi smiled, "I think Joy is what I feel right now."

Jaehyuk smiled and looked over at him, "There is also happiness in the way we think like optimism and gratitude."

Asahi nodded and thought about the times his friends had been there for him. He had amazing friends and appreciated them with a lot, of gratitude.

"Now we have the hard to explain happiness, Love, and Fulfillment. These are states of happiness that psychology thinks we need to feel comfortable with ourselves, be at our full potential."

"My parents love me."

"Exactly, love isn't to love without sacrifice but we will talk about that another day."

Asahi nodded, "another day, so you will help me?"

Jaehyuk tilted his head, "I rather just leave the lessons here, happiness is the best feeling and I rather you only feel that one."

Asahi let out a small hum, "Yeah I get where you are coming from but, I want to understand my friends and family. So you have to help me."

Jaehyuk gave a small smile, "I'll do my best."

Asahi let go of his hands before bringing him in for a hug, "Thank you, I feel gratitude towards you."

"The term would be grateful," Jaehyuk laughed patting the male's back.

"Grateful," Asahi repeated the word before pulling away.

Jaehyuk picked up his bag, his heart beating from the unsuspected hug, "I have to go, my mom will worry about me."

worry. Asahi just nodded, "Okay, get home safe."

Jaehyuk left and Asahi sat down looking around the garden. He let out a sigh bringing his hand up to wipe a tear that had slipped out of his eye. Asahi gave the flowers a small smile before grabbing his bag and making his way home.

"Asahi, where were you?"

Asahi shrugged, the feeling of emptiness creeping its way back in. He felt as if he was suffocating, warmth was felt on his face feel tears making their way down his face.

"Hyung, Asahi hyung is having an episode," Jeongwoo called out.

Hyunsuk ran out of his room to see a confused Asahi, "Hey, how was your day?"

Asahi missed the feeling of happiness, "It was really really nice."

Hyunsuk looked at the guys that were out in the living room, they all were looking over shocked by Asahi who didn't give a one-word answer like normal. Hyunsuk smiled walking closer to Asahi rubbing the side of his arms, "That's really good."

Before they knew it Asahi gave Hyunsuk a hug, "Thank you for never leaving my side."

Hyunsuk felt the feeling of gratitude that Asahi was trying to express, he had his own tears and his arms found their way around the male. "I would never leave you okay? none of us will."

Soon all of the boys were hugging in the living room, this feeling was the most beautiful.