sentir ° jaesahi

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Asahi went later to the bridge by the school, he peered over and looked out at the moving water. Since the bridge was stone, the male climbed on the post and sat his legs dangling off the edge. The street lamps were turning on as it was getting a bit dark out, and the sunset reflected softly over the moving water.

The wind was whisked by Asahi's small frame, and his eyes were trailing to look below him. Watching the water crash against the end of the post, now that it was later the water wasn't as calm as it was during the day but now beckoning him closer.

Asahi found himself nearing the edge wondering if he would be able to feel himself dying, "Hey, what are you doing, get down from there!"

Asahi found himself quickly getting down to his feet now safely planted on the ground, he looked at the person and it was Jaehyuk. Suddenly, a rush of emotions flowed through his body and he screamed.

Soon, Asahi found himself sobbing on the boy's shoulder, he was so scared but somehow felt comfort in his embrace.

"Asahi what were you thinking?"

That question, hell if Asahi knew what he was thinking but, he had no idea, "I want to go home."

"Can you call Hyunsuk? Or someone?"

Asahi pulled away and tried to pull his phone out of his pocket. He was shaky and couldn't see through his tears so the male screamed again, this time out of frustration. Jaehyuk took the phone from him, Asahi found himself sitting on the ground his head against the pillar he was just on looking up at the sky.

Jaehyuk was a bit distanced from him, calling Hyunsuk, "Hyunsuk?"

"Who is this?"

"It's Jaehyuk calling from Asahi's phone, he was sitting on the bridge and I had him get down. I don't know what's wrong with him, he just cried and screamed."

"I'll be right there. Watch over him please till I get there."

Jaehyuk hung up and turned to look at Asahi who was looking at the stars, "Don't come any closer."

Asahi didn't even look at him to know he was approaching, he was back at his numbing sense of comfort when he wasn't near.

"I know you feel scared, I want to help you," Jaehyuk spoke.

"Don't, If scared is what I feel it's because of you," Asahi said, his voice had no emotion and it was chilling.

Jaehyuk looked down, "I'm sorry."

Asahi didn't reply, words seemed to have no meaning to him. After an episode, he loses his senses and it drains his energy. He just wanted to sleep, he saw a car pull up and Hyunsuk hopped out.

"Thanks, I'll take his stuff, did you need a ride home?"

Jaehyuk glanced at Asahi, "No, I'm just right here, I've done enough."

Asahi glanced up at Jaehyuk as he walked away, he tried to lift himself off the ground but he didn't have the strength to do so. Hyunsuk put Asahi's things in the car before helping the male up and into the passenger seat. Putting the seat belt on and closing the door, Hyunsuk got into the driver's side and watched how Asahi moved slightly to put his forehead against the window.

"You want to talk about it?"

Asahi watched the scenery go by, drained, "no."

"Okay, I'm here when you are ready."

"Hyung, do you guys worry about me?"

Hyunsuk wondered why Asahi would ask such a question, "Of course, why would you think otherwise?"

"I don't know how you feel unless you tell me," Asahi said.

"Does your mom tell you?"

"She always tells me she's worried or she loves me," Asahi sighed and glanced at Hyunsuk. "Can you guys do that? If you don't I can't tell."

Hyunsuk smiled sadly and squeezed the boy's hand, "This is out of reassurance, I had Jihoon make your soup, have you eaten?"

Asahi let out a small no which made Hyunsuk worry for his friend. When they got home Asahi slowly trudged to the kitchen and sat down where his food was placed, Jihoon sat next to him with a smile.

When Asahi finished he walked into the bathroom to get ready for bed, the minute he lay down his eyes had shut.

In the living room, Hyunsuk called the rest of the boys in the house out, "We need to talk."

"About what," Junghwan asked.

"Asahi," the name alone made the boys go silent. "Asahi is a Lacuna, he has trouble identifying the emotions of others and his own. His emotions aren't strong enough for him to recognize so he is normal in a numb dormant state. However, Asahi asked me to voice our opinions and our feelings when he is around so maybe he could try to understand."

"It's been years and he finally wants to understand," Doyoung said confused but it sounded a bit rude.

Yoshi patted Doyoung's leg, "This is great, Asahi wants to finally open up to us."

Mashiho and Yoshi smiled at each other.

"His family normally voices out their feelings, though Asahi isn't familiar with the feeling he knows the definition, maybe from that he can learn body language as well," Jihoon said, Hyunsuk already talked with him earlier.

"Where was he earlier," Junghwan asked.

Hyunsuk sighed, "The bridge, I know something happened but, he doesn't want to talk yet. So maybe if we can get him to trust us a little more and make him feel included it will work."

"Alright Hyung, I think this will work," Yedam said.

"I hope so."

"Okay everyone go to bed, Some of you have classes tomorrow," Jihoon said, making everyone go into their rooms. He came back to Hyunsuk and put his hand on his shoulder, "I know this will work."

Hyunsuk looked at him and smiled, "Thanks, I hope so."