Tried it all
Mari Mazzini
Ive tried it all
Ive tried writing and screaming and crying
Ive tried painting and drawing and cutting
Ive tried it all
Even if it hurts me
Ive tried music and crocheting, and hiding
And maybe killing and dying
But even if you go crying and dying
And agonising in pain
It will never be enough
Because i am still trying,
Still trying it all.
And it doesn't matter if people go lying, gaslighting, and fake smiling to me
Ill just go denying and fighting reality
It doesn't matter if i disagree,
Or if i differ brutally
I feel like nothing is going to suit me
And everyone will agree
Because it will never be enough
Even if i try ir all
It will never be enough
Because standards are infinite
And i know ill never be someone's favourite
