ok last sad chapter for a bit, i'm gunna do a mass update on taylor and 5sos stuff i've been neglecting lmao
kinda been pushing religion away cause of the drama with it all and the correlation it has with my bad relationship with my family, but this was kinda nice to see lowkey 😭
like i never really felt very strongly about god or anything but sometimes that damn book had some freaking messages man idk
for real bro
😀
huh
my first though was "what if i wanna erase myself?"
like i hate the person i am, i always feel like a fraud like i'm fooling everyone into thinking i'm a good person
i never feel like i'm doing enough, i never feel good enough, i don't believe i can actually accomplish anything anymore. i feel like everyone around me would be better off if i was different, i'd be better off if i was different
anti hero really my song y'all, she needs to write another bop like that i need more self loathing anthems
lowkey wanna start writing a story or something, or maybe poetry. i need a hobby and writing seems fun idk
why can't it just pause for just 5 fucking seconds, i just need to breathe
i feel like i'm suffocating
i'm trying to stay in the moment more, my birthday is today and it's making me really sentimental. my dog also isn't do really well health wise and i just have so much regret and guilt about not being that nice to her recently and not spending much time with her
if she gets better i swear i'll hug her and live her and cuddle her more than ever before. i know it won't make up for the years i spent pushing her away for no reason but at least i can give her some comfort in the last years of her life. she's an old dog and she's gunna die someday, but i don't want her last days to be now when i have so much i want to fix with her
we all need more time on this earth, there's never enough time
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