Tw- verbal fighting. Mental distress y'all...look away.
Word count-1983
A/n- this is my worst nightmare.
Ps- I'm sorry.
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Jj Maybank was my first. My first everything.
My first kiss,my first boyfriend,my first love,the first one to have taken my virginity, my first.
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He leaned in to kiss me,I accepted ofcourse, giving him a little peck back.
He leaned in again but this time i stopped him.
"What? I-I'm sorry did you not- im-"
"No. No. I just... I need you to promise me something."
"Wha-okay?"
"Don't make it hurt?"
"What? I mean at first it will-"
"No. Jj. Not everything is about sex.
We can have that conversation later"
I whispered the last part making him smirk.
"I mean...if-when. It...ends...promise not to make it hurt?"
It felt like a lump in my throat to say it. But I needed to.
"When?"
"I don't mean it like that Jay...but... relationships can go wrong. I need you to tell me you won't make it hurt. Because i know it will."
He looked at me, trying to figure out if it was just a joke.
"I promise."
He said,looking into my eyes.
"Only if you promise too" he added.
"I promise."
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We were currently at jhon b's house,in big jhons room.
Everyone was chilling outside and I'd come inside to check on jj.
He'd been distant for almost a week now.
Did I do something?
Was he okay?
Were we okay?
"Jj"
"What?" He asked annoyed.
I stayed silent for a few seconds, deciding whether to say something.
"Okay what the fuck is going on?"
I chose to say something.
Will I regret it later?
Maybe.
"Nothing is going on..."
"Don't bullshit me jj. What is going on? Did I do something? Did something happen? Talk to me dude..."
"I told you. Nothing happened"
