Just Lovers [WooSan]

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Wooyoung

I did as Mihi said and I stayed away from San. It wasn't that hard because I couldn't find him anywhere even if I wanted to see him. 

Hongjoong and Seonghwa had absolutely no contact with him and I tried not to focus too long on their judging stares. 

Everyone knew it was my fault that he disappeared. 

I knew I should stay away, and I was, but I still wanted to know he was okay and not just laying in a ditch somewhere dead. 

I spotted a familiar face across the hall and I realized I had one last chance to make sure he was okay. I ran over to her, touching her shoulder to get her attention. 

She looked up, taking out one of her airpods but her face fell when she realized it was me. "What?" She asked flatly. 

"I just want to know if San is okay." I said. 

I didn't know why but she looked relieved and she relaxed a little. Enough to turn around and give me her full attention. "He's..." She grimaced. "He's managing." 

"Where is he?" I asked. 

She clenched her jaw as she stared at me with untrusting eyes. 

"Please. I just want to know he's okay." I said. 

"He's living with me for right now." She answered hesitantly. 

I didn't know why that bothered me to know he was living with her. She must've seen that because her face twisted into a scowl. 

"What do you want, Wooyoung? If you want to see him, then you're gonna have to wait for him to make that decision. I'm staying out of it but I'm going to tell you this, I'm not helping you in any way with him. You guys shouldn't be together and I stand by that." 

"What, and you guys should?" I snapped, getting tired of everyone telling me to stay away from him. 

Her eyes narrowed at me. "No. No, I don't think I should be with him dumbass. In fact I don't think he should be with anyone because he seems like he just keeps meeting dicks like you! He's tired of being used." 

"You have no idea who I am, and you know nothing about our relationship!" 

"He likes you, Wooyoung. And from what I can see, I have no idea why. But for some reason he does. If I went home right now and told him that you wanted to see him, he'd drop everything and forget all of his hurt to see you. Do you know how dangerous that is for him? Which is why when I go home, I'm not going to tell him I saw you today. Let him move on and heal instead of dragging him along." She shook her head and put her airpod back in before walking away. 

I couldn't help but feel angry even if she was right. I had completely hurt him, more than I even knew.

I knew I was extremely selfish and a horrible person, because despite how much I hurt him and how much he clearly wanted to stay away from me. I couldn't help but miss him. I couldn't help but want to be by his side again. 

Another week passed and Mihi finally showed up to dance class again. She looked marginally less pissed and gave me a nod to let me know I wasn't in her death note.