Heaven Sent

XXXVI

Again, looking away from him and back on the monitor. In a quick wifi of my head, feeling his hand cup my chin and turn my head slowly towards him. "What. Happened. Princess." This time he asked with concerned in his eyes, waiting for a response from me.

"Just— sad." "Sad about what?" He asks me with a demand tone. "I'm not up there." My eyes begin to water little by little and he seems to notice it. "Don't cry, it's not your fault. Remember that." He kisses the top of my head and butterflies play in my stomach at his sudden movements.

"I should get going before everybody gets worried where I'm at, including your members getting off stage as I'm looking at the monitor. Looking into his eyes first before back at the monitor, he's right.

"Okay, also remember. Towards the last song of the night when all groups and solos go on stage together. We can make small interactions but my advised is to try and stay with your members. We don't want anything to spread already." He gets up quickly and starts heading towards the door.

"Have a great performance tonight Yoongi." He looks back at me with a smile and leaves the room in a hurry so he won't get caught. Taking a deep breath once I hear the door fully close, looking down right at my knees I began to think all the things I wish it could've happened but in reality, it's not going to happen.

Few minutes go by and the girls come back into the dressing room (our room/holding room) It is now 5:22PM in the afternoon. Concert starts in the next two hours. Jiyoo and Seo-Yeon are getting their hairs done, while Daisy is sitting next to me on the sofa patiently waiting for our turns.

No idea why I'm getting dress for this concert when I'm not performing, even though I am going on stage for the last song. Which is exciting and happy I get to wear the costume Yoona made and put together for us. "Ariiiii" hearing a lazy tone coming from Daisy, looking over to my left and quickly she places her head on my right shoulder.

"What happened love?" Asking her, "I'm just tired and honestly don't want to perform. Do you want to fill me in?" Chuckling at her comment/question, "Would love to but you know I can't."

"I know, wish you can and for sure you would join us on the last song at least." Small smiling at her comment again, looking towards the monitor and starting to see fans get into their seats while patiently waiting. "Indeed." We sit in silence after as she keeps her head on my shoulder and I don't mind.

"Okay Daisy, your up!" One of our hair stylists calls for her to get in the same chair Seo-Yeon was now just in. She gets up quickly and pretty much switches spots with Daisy, now she sits next to me while daisy hops in the chair and the hair stylist begins her work.

Her dark black hair slick back showing off her whole face as it's always in her face. All the freakin time.

"You look great." Telling her in a happier tone, "Thanks, soon you will look great just like us ma'am." Rolling my eyes at her comment on ma'am, "Even the small details on your makeup looks great as well, do you have to go get dress automatically now or you're going to wait for them?" She shifts in her spot before responding back to me.

"Yeah I'm going to wait on them," she looks at Daisy and Jiyoo before returning her eyes back on me. "You doing okay though?" She asks me with curiosity in her tone and mainly in her eyes, "A little bit, just wish I can-" "I know I know, we do as well." We both make a small smile at each other.

"Question though Ari," she whispers at me which catches me off guard as I ask her, "What did you say?" She grabs my ear gently and pulls me closer to her, "Question, did Yoongi come in here?" She lets go as my eyes open wide a bit at her sudden question.

"No he didn't, why?" Whispering back, Lying to her but assuming she already knows the answer, "Part of his cologne is hitting my nose hard right now." Damnit. "You liar." She says with a aggressive tone mainly in a whisper, "I'm sorry okay, it's just— keeping it low profile still and forever Seo-Yeon."

"Until you guys get caught, get it." We stare at each other for a bit, "No no no," continuing to whisper, "We won't get caught." "Pfft, oh okay miss Ari, you sure about that?" She gives me the side eye, shaking my head, I turn my gaze over to Jiyoo which she is walking towards us.

"Ari, it's your turn." Jiyoo says once she reaches the other sofa and sits down, quickly back on her phone again. Looking confused, "Wait I'm getting dressed for what?" "Your still in the show Ari, don't be a fool, last song of the concert remember." Oh. "Right, yeah last song okay I forgot." Getting up quickly and heading to the station, which soon I sit down in the chair and the hair stylist does her magic.

In my mind I am racing with a lot of thoughts, mainly stressed about everything that has been going on. Still to this day I think about what if I died on what happened to us, mainly all of us.

Still processing everything is dull, lately the company has been receiving some emails and calls for us to attend to be on TV shows automatically and talk about what happened. Denied quickly.

HYPE doesn't want us to talk about it until we're ready and mainly healthy by then to talk about it. Pretty much not suicidal, depressed, and other etc.

Which is not the case, the memories live on and it will stay in our heads forever. Accident, severe injures, recovering, him, everything else have been a roller coaster.

My thoughts running through my head until, "Okay ladies!!" Our manager bust through the door, looking at her through the mirror as a small breaks out on my hair stylist doing my hair. "We have a hour left until concert begins, when there is two groups or one group left until y'all go up, I will come and get you all so we can head on over backstage until further notice. Sounds great?" She says with excitement and enthusiasm to boost our energy with sparks in her eyes.

"Yes ma'am!"

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Oh my days it's hard to see him go 😭😭
Like I said though, the sooner the better, see you later Yoongi 💙