Right now I'm listening to the song "Memory Reboot"
It's a beautiful song.
Some nostalgia, some pain and some peace...
It sounds just perfect for my life... I think.
I'm currently very overwhelmed with this thing named love. Don't get me wrong, I have a boyfriend.
Yesssss I'm pan and yesssss I'm "actually a women and the fact, that I'm in love with a boy shows, that I'm straight" but...
I. Feel. Like. I'm. Non-binary.
But back to thing named Love.
I'm not sure, if I really love him...
Let me explain something:
I have multiple personalities:
Louraynee, my Little Space
Tony, that one smart, dominant ass
Riot, the violent one
Lisa, the caregiver
CS/ Sies, that person, who was the first personality
Dannee, the I-dont-give-a-fuck dude
Scarled, my Anxious side And
Larissa, my depressed gf :° )
And most of them love/need my bf.
Except Tony, Riot and Dannee.
Tony and Riot are like: 'I don't need and I don't want love.'
And Danne only sees him as his best friend.
So the question is: do I love him?
If 5 out of 8 personalities love/need him.
Do I love him? Or not? Is he just an object for my own benefit? Or do I really love him?
Don't get me wrong. I really care about him and his mental health and state. He is really important to me. But another friend of mine is also important to me and I try to help her.
And I don't want sexual things in the relationship between me and my boyfriend.
That's why I'm not sure.
That's why I think I'm not worth to be his partner.
STAI LEGGENDO
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Storie breviThis book is just about some stuff, that stuck in my mind. Things like BSD, anime, music, mental health and such stuff. Maybe also some lists of great songs, quotes and TikToks I don't own until I say it. I hope you like it.
