Better off without me

Hey, Lord, I'm tired.
Hey, Lord, you know I'm tired.
Hey, Lord, it's getting bad again.
I'm drowning in my sins again.
I'm drowning in my thoughts again.
Several prayerless nights.
Refusing to look you in the spiritual eye because I feel so, so dirty.
Feeling like I shouldn't come to you because only you truly know all of my messes.
You know all of my distresses.
You know I've been in deep depression.
You know my thoughts haven't been too pretty.
You know I have to stay wary.
Wary of myself.
Don't know how much more I can take before I'm sent over the edge.
The edge of mentally breaking down.
The edge of aggressively lashing out.
The edge of finally giving into consistent doubt.
Hey, Lord, you know I'm fighting.
Hey, Lord, you know I'm crying.
Hey, Lord, you know deep down under my laughs and smiles I'm deeply hurting inside.
I'm giving all I got, but it's never enough.
Hey, Lord, you know I'm trying, It is all I got, and I know it's not enough.
Hey, Lord, I don't think I want to stay.
Hey, Lord, I can feel myself slip away every single day.
Hey, Lord, I'm tired of trying.
Hey, Lord, I'm tired of crying.
Hey, Lord, I'm tired of my thoughts overpowering me.
Everyday I'm thinking to myself about my own thoughts.
What I come up with is:
"LET THEM TAKE ME!!"
"LET THEM TAKE ME!!"
Hey, Lord, you know I'm tired.
Hey, Lord, you know I'm tired.
Hey, Lord, you know I'm tired of pretending to be okay.
Hey, Lord, you know I'm tired of feeling this pain.
I don't know how I've went so astray.
I'm so tired of feeling this way.
No where feels safe enough for me.
Safe enough for me to be me.
Lord, I just wanna leave.
I'm sure this world would be better off with me. -W.O.S.
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