Starting over

Chapter 21: At last

Chapter 21

Katniss P.O.V.

I lock up the door to the door to let Peeta and I inside.

Mr Mellark, Prim and Penny are back at their hotel, they're leaving on Monday morning, so tomorrow we're going to spend the whole day with them.

"Annie and Madge not going to be here?" Peeta asks, sitting down onto my desk chair.

"I don't think so, Annie were going to the movies with Finnick and Madge and Gale decided to have a late night picnic".

And that's true. They even got a basket.

"I see", Peeta says.

I don't know if he knows my plan yet. I mean there is a reason the girls decided to not be here this evening, and why they dragged their tired boyfriends away from Peeta.

I strip out of the shoes and dress, not really caring if Peeta watches me, he's my boyfriend after all and I do love him. I shouldn't be embarrassed to change clothes in front of him.

I pull a big t-shirt overt head and turn around to see Peeta's lustful eyes.

"It looks like your eyes are going to pop out any second you know", I giggle as I take the butterfly out of my hair.

Peeta's face becomes red instantly and he looks like he's ashamed over himself.

"I'm sorry", he says in a raspy voice and looks away.

I hold back my laughter and walk up to him. I put my hand under his chin and turn his face towards mine again.

"Don't be", I smile. "You can look at me whenever you want to, I'm not hiding anything of me from you Peeta, I love you".

I sit down in his lap, facing him, and my arms around his neck.

"I'll never get tired of hearing that", Peeta mumbles. "I love you so much".

"And I don't get tired of hearing that either", I say. "I haven't had a lot of people actually caring for me in my life and to know that you do means everything to me".

I press my lips against Peeta's. I press them hard against his lips and he press hard as well. Like we can't believe we've just said I love you to each other and that the other just said it back.

With me in his arms he stands up. I quickly wrap my legs around his waist and tighten my arms around his neck to hold myself up. But I don't really have to, because Peeta's hands on my butt holds me up in his arms.

I can't really see where he walks but soon I fall down onto a bed with Peeta hovering over me, as the kiss deepens and his tongue enters my mouth.

I groan when I feel his tongue caress the inside off mouth.

On impulse I pull off Peeta's shirt and throw it on the floor.

A part of me tells me to stop what's happening, to push Peeta away, and to let myself breath and think. But another part of me wants to do this, likes the way things are headed.

But before I can take things further or stop it Peeta is the one who stops things.

He jumps off me and stands in front of me, shirtless and hot as fuck. His hair is more tousled and messed up than usual and his face is flushed. He looks ashamed of himself, and like he's done something stupid.

"I'm so sorry", he says. "God I'm so stupid, I'm so sorry".

I sit up in the bed.

"Sorry about what?" I ask.

"I know you don't want to... Do this, I'm so sorry for taking it so far", he says.

I take his hand, half blinded by his hotness, and pull him back down onto the bed. I can't believe he's actually apologizing for me ripping his shirt off of him.

He's so sweet, he's so gentle and kind. And he's apologizing for something that isn't even he's fault.

"Peeta if I wanted to stop things, I would have stopped things", I say, moving closer to him. "But I didn't stop things because I didn't want to stop".

"What?" Peeta asks looking up at me.

I sit as close to Peeta as I can without sitting in his lap. I put my hand onto his neck and lean my forehead against his.

"Why do you think Annie and Madge dragged the boys away from you? Didn't you see how tired they were?" I say. "I wanted you to myself for a few hours".

"And..." But I interrupt Peeta before he can say anything else because I know what he's going to say.

"Yes", I say.

I don't let Peeta say anything else. I attach my lips to his and pull him down over me as I lay down in the bed again.

Peeta hovers over me, kissing me back just as hungrily as I'm kissing him.

I love him. That's the only thing I'm thinking of. The only thing that covers my mind. My love for this boy.

He restored my faith to people. Just as Annie, Madge, Finnick and Gale all did. But Peeta restored my faith in other ways. He showed me that I'm capable of loving someone and that someone is capable of loving me.

I thought that no one loved me. After what happened with my stepfather I felt filthy and unworthy. Like everything bad in the world was my fault and that I deserved everything I got. Everything bad that happened.

I didn't deserve it. I know that now. Peeta and my friends made me realize that. And I'm forever grateful.

It hurts when Peeta enters me. But it's not at all the same as when my stepfather attacked me, because this time I don't fight back and it's a whole new experience.

Peeta makes my days brighter. He makes everything easy and everything feels so much better.

That's why I want to give myself to Peeta. Because I trust him, and he trusts me.

Afterwards Peeta holds me in his arms, close to his chest. My ear lying on his chest, listening to his heartbeat. He's steady and strong heartbeat. I love his heart because he has the best heart in the whole world.

I just hope this can last forever.

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Hey guys I hope you liked the chapter.

Peeta is so sweet. So... Katniss and Peeta had sex. You think Katniss made the right decision for herself? What will happen now? Is the drama over for Katniss? Will she be happy and be together with Peeta without trouble coming after her?

Please vote and comment.

-Josephine xx