PLEASE SAY "DON'T"

PART 65- what to do.

part 65- what to do.

Eyedea's POV

I saw Levi ang LV .... awtz!!!

they saw what happened! Waa. tinitigan nila ko then they are ready to tirn their backs...

"LV!!! LEVI!!!!"

lumingon sila sakin.. peor si Levi dere deretso lang siya hanggang makarating siya sa sasakyan niya.. pinaandar niya yun. bakit nagdrive siya ngayon?! -_-

hinabol ko naman..as in takbo na.. wala akong paki kung naka dress ako.. awwwwww. kinakapos na ko ng hininga..

*sigh*

anlayo na... -_____-

takbo pa din ako.. kaya ko toh.. kaso...

*PLOK*

F! sakit. nagdapa ako. bakit ngayon pa ko nagign lampa :( sakit.. ang hapdi... paglingon ko sa taas.... there I saw Levi...

he offers his hand to me.. naiiyak na ko :( dahil ansakit ... may sugat ako sa tuhod!! first time na nangyare sakin..

"bakit kailangan mong habulin?!"

"kasi galit ka :( "

pinunasan niya yung luha ko... "Tss. Lorraine. anong meron kung galit ako. -__- KAIBIGAN mo lang ako.. siya boyfriend mo. ano nga bang panama ko dun? alam ko naman kung san ako pwe-pwesto.. yung pwesto ko.... DIYAN lang sa LABAS NG PUSO MO... pilitin ko mang pumasok.. di na pwede ... kasi its occupied by him... yaan mo na lang ako.. pahupain ko muna yung sakit ah??? sakit kasi ee.. "

he left me there.

i hate myself... ito yung kinatatakot ko... after ko maging masaya... :( malulungkot ako..

pinilit ko tumayo...

at naglakad pabalik... and there i saw Lv waiting..

nagmadali siyang lumapit sakin para alalayan ako..

"yan. dapat baby, di mo na hinabol... nasaktan ka pa. tss. look at your knees its bleeding.."

waaaaaaaa... dumudugo talaga siya..

"its fine.. "

"fine??? bakit mo pa ba hinabol...? sa tingin mo baby dahil dun, mababawasan yung sakit? pag nakasakit na... yaan mo na lang... wag mo na icomfort kasi magkakaron lang siya ulit ng rason para umasa... pag umiwas na yung tao, hayaan mo na lang siya.. "

"di ka ba galit sakin?"

bago siya sumagot... nakarating na kami sa veranda nung bahay ko..

"galit? bakit naman?? You two are sweet. Thats obvious. Are you asking me if that hurts?"

pagtingin ko sa kanya... O_____O

</////3 my heart is breaking...

this is the first time i saw her crying.. pag hindi niya na kaya... tsaka lang siya umiiyak..

"is this enough as an answer? seeing me crying.. maybe that wasn't just a game... baby.. maybe i thought wrong.. bUT YES... that HURTS alot , and i DONT THINK I CAN BEAR IT."

T______T

"i don't think i can live with it.. seeing him with other girl, makes me wish that ALL JAMRIL HAS SAID was TRUE.."

:(( Jamril said LV died from an EMOTIONAL BREAKDOWN.

"and i won't lie.. you know i can't lie to you.. coz you've known me so much better than that... you know i hate this feeling... :( but what can i do? he made me feel like he still loves me..."

i don't think what came to my mind why i said.

"Maybe he still does. "

</3 whats wrong with me?! hindi ko kayang nasasaktan si LV ng ganito... kung minsan na kong naniwalang wala na siya. alam niyo kung ano yugn epekto sakin nun, na handa kong manakit ng tao, mapaghiganti ko lang siya..

"But.... " i cut her off.

"maybe he's just using me to forget you... maybe, he just see you in ME. maybe.... its not really ME he loved. maybe its YOU ALL THE TIME... :("

i said those words like I weren't affected at all. like it doesn't even hurt a bit. but the fact that.. i want to bury myself in this exact place coz it hurts like hell. :(

"maybe that's true baby... " then I saw her smile.

Smiling because she believes that Irvin still loves her. (Maybe.. its true.)

She smiles without knowing that my heart is slowly breaking for whatever this coversation may lead us..

"what to do now?" she asked...

"Give me one more day..... and after that... its the end"