A Good Life Is A "Maybe?"

Do i really like him?

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Do you know after our family vacation, pagkabalik namin hindi na nalabas sila Neasy and I don't know why.

After that nalaman ko na may nagccrush kay Neasy and siya pa yung nangliligaw kay Neasy and napunta siya sa harap ng bahay nila Neasy. That girl is always giving Neasy a love letter but Neasy didn't like her soo yeah well it's his decision.

After that I feel like something's different , parang hindi ko na medyo na ffeel na crush ko siya and I don't know why kung bakit ko sinusuportahan yung babaeng yun na mahalin si Neasy, like every girl protect their crush and I think I'm not that kind of girl?

I'm always asking my self "do I really like him, why can't I tell my feelings for him?" But I think he knows already because my friends tell to him all my secrets "Are they even my real friend?"

There this day na parang ayaw ko nang pumunta sa old neighborhood namin because I think na I don't have any chance na he will like me.

Actually I'm still a kid like I'm 12 and why is my heart feels like going crazy to him......

I'm always thinking if he will go out, if he will talk to me, if he will play to me? But no, he never talked to me,like am I look like a flower to him,that he knows my feelings are blooming for him but he doesn't still talk to me?

Sometimes my friends became his friend and now their always bullying me, am I not to perfect to them. I do everything to them, give them money, give them a gift, feed them, celebrate their birthday and even take care of them and teach them like everything I did is for them all.

So why am I alone right now? I need all of you now.......

I'm depressed long time ago. I wish na sana maramdaman nila na tao ako, nasasaktan din ako, nahihirapan din ako.