Words left Unsaid

a pen that doesn't leak.

Opening about what I feel is like writing using a pen that leaks.

I have countless of words to write, hundreds of letters that are waiting to be read. And no matter how much I wanted to let everything out, I simply can't.

I'm afraid that when I start to write a dot, it will cause a mess.
Too much ink will leak, feelings and emotions that's been stored for so long will finally come out. The sudden leak of ink will tear the paper and create a huge mess everywhere.
It will leave a stain, and cause a trouble to the person who will try to keep it.

That's why I decided to not say anything,
to keep everything to myself.

Because I'm scared for people to see the mess inside of me.
I'm scared that after that, they will throw me away because they can't bare to accept how dark that side can be.

so I guess...
it's better to pretend that I'm a pen that doesn't leak.

ceniza_ink