The boy who saved me<3 By Ryder G

The boy who saved me -Ryder

I wake up gasping for air after having another nightmare, I've had these night mares for months since the accident.  As i look at the time it reads 7:49.  It's summer so i don't have to worry about school.  It starts on the 17 of  august, so in 5 and a half weeks .  so there's still some time left of

 summer about a month i guess. I get out of bed and walk into the bathroom staring at my self in the mirror. My cuts still sting from last night i got in a heated argument with my mom .  Where she threw a plate at my face cutting my cheek,  The scars weren't from the plate but from a small blade in which i kept  in a small red glass heart shaped container. I took my clothes off and

 turned on my playlist, I hopped in the shower. my cuts sting as the hot water runs down my body. I finally get done and dry myself off. Once done i turn off my playlist and read the time.It's

 now 8:21. i brush my teeth and hair and put it in a high messy bun. I walk over to my closet and pick out a black tang top with grey booty shorts and a white jacket. I grab a cigarette from my desk along with a lighter and put on my white sneakers. I shut my door behind me putting 

the lighter and cigarette  into the pocket on my jacket. As i walked into the kitchen my mom's passed out on the floor by the fridge  i dragged her over  to the trash can, i could just smell the

 alcohol on her. i grabbed a pillow from the living room and placed it under her head. As much as i hated her i still loved her. It was so hard to hate her though she always made u feel guilty even when it was her fault.  And the little you always craved for her attention and love but instead it

 went to drugs and drinking.  And it was her fault because anytime u would find the alcohol and drugs u would hide them or flush them but she just bought more and would find them.  She's been to 3 different rehabs and has been to them like 10 times. Ur eyes started to water because you knew nothing would change. U wiped ur tears as you noticed u were side tracked. Ugh, I forgot to go put mascara on,  Thank goodness i didn't have it on while i was crying. u took 2

 minutes to put it on. U went downstairs and grabbed a brownie  and was about to walk out the door when u took one more look at your mom, U didn't wanna cry again so u shut the door and

 started walking. U Kinda lived in a neighborhood. There were some houses on your street they weren't all by each other though.  U pulled out ur light and lit the cigarette.  as u blew smoke out ur mouth u just started at the sky until you hear a voice say "hello?".